Journal, 1835–1836

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<Sketch Book> [front cover]
[Blank flyleaf followed by lined leaf with scriptural references regarding repentance on the recto]
Sketch Book for the use of
Joseph Smith, jr.
22 September 1835 • Tuesday
September 22, 1835. This day Joseph Smith, jr.  labored with , in obtaining and  writing blessings. We were thronged a part of the  time with company, so that our labor, in this thing,  was hindered; but we obtained many precious things, and  our souls were blessed. O Lord, may thy Holy Spirit be with  thy servants forever. Amen.
September [22nd] This day Joseph Smith, Jr. was at home  writing blessings for my most beloved Brotheren <I>, have  been hindered by a multitude of visitors but the Lord  has blessed our Souls this day. May God grant <to> con tinue his mercies unto my house, this <night,> day For Chr ist sake. This day my Soul has desired the salvati on of Brother . Also Brother . Came to my house and let the Chap pel Committee have one thousand dollers, by loan,  for the building the ; Oh may  God bless him with an hundred fold! even of the  <things of> Earth, for this ritious [righteous] act. My heart is full of  desire to day, to <be> blessed of the God, of Abraham;  with prosperity, untill I will be able to pay all  my depts; for it is my <the> delight of my soul to <be> honest.  Oh Lord that thou knowes right well! help me  and I will give to the poor.
23 September 1835 • Wednesday
September 23d 1835 This day Brother, <Brothers> ,  Tibbets , and Started for   the place designated for or the  Saints they Came to bid us farewell  the Brotheren Came in to pray with them and  Brother acted as spokesman  he prayed in the spirit a glorious time suc ceded his prayr Joy filled our hearts and we [p. 1] blessed them and bid them God speed and  and promiced them a safe Journy and took  them <by the hand> and bid them farewell for <a> season Oh!  may God grant them long life and good  days these blessings I ask <upon them> for Christ sake Amen
24 September 1835 • Thursday
September 24th 1835  This day the met at my house to take into consid e[r]ation the redeemtion of and it was  the voice of the spirit of the Lord that we  petition to the that is those who  have been driven out <should> to do so to be set  back on their Lands next spring and we  go next season to live or dy to this end so  the dy is cast in we  truly had a good time and Covena[n]ted  to strugle for this thing utill [until] death  shall desolve this union and if one falls  that the rest be not discouraged  but pesue [pursue] this object untill it is acom plished which may God grant u[n]to us  in the name of Christ our Lord
September 24th 1835  This day drew up an  Article of inrollment for the redemtion of  Zion that we may obtain volenteers to go we  next Spring <to > I ask God in the name of Jesus  that we may obtain Eight hundred men  <or one thousand> well armed and that they may acomplish  this great work even so Amen—— [p. 2]
25 September 1835 • Friday
Friday 25th September.  This day I remained at home: nothing of  note transpired. The twelve all returned from the east to day.
26 September 1835 • Saturday
26th. This evening, the from the  east this morning, we met them, and conversed upon some  matters of difficulty which was <ware> existing between some of  them, and , and all things were settled  satisfactorily.
27 September 1835 • Sunday
27th Sunday. Attended meeting: brethren, , , and preached and . The Lord poured out  his Spirit, and my soul was edified.
28 September 1835 • Monday
28th. met and tried brother : he was reproved, repented, and was . The next was   for fornication: he was cut off from  the Church.
29 September 1835 • Tuesday
29th met to-day and tried brother  Allen Avery: he was acquited from any charge. Also  Brother , who was also acquited:  also bro. , who confessed his error  and was forgiven. In all these I acted on  the part of the defence for the accused to plead  for mercy. The Lord blessed my soul, and the coun cil was greatly blessed, also. Much good will  no doubt, result from our labors during the  two days in which we were occupied on the  business of the Church.
30 September 1835 • Wednesday
30th. Stayed at home and visited many who came  to enquire after the work of the Lord.
1 October 1835 • Thursday
October 1, 1835. This after noon labored  on the , in company with brsr   and : The system of astronomy  was unfolded.
2 October 1835 • Friday
2nd. To-day wrote a letter to be published in the  Messenger and Advocate. [p. 3]
3 October 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 3d Oct held a on  the case of Elder for giving  credence to false and slanderous reports  instigated to Injure bro  and also for thretning bro   and others in authority  of the . after due deliberation the[y]  both confessed and wer acquited.
In the afternoon waited on the  most of them at my house and exhibited  to them the ancient reccords in my  possession and gave explanation of the  same thus <this> the day passed off with the  blessings of the Lord
4 October 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 4 started early in the mornin  with brother to hold a meeting  in when about a mile from  home we saw two Dears playing in the  field which diverted our minds  by giving an impatus to our thoughts  upon the subject of the creation of God  we conversed upon many topicks and  the day passed off in a very agreeable  manner and the Lord blessed our souls  when we arived at we were  disappointed of a meeting through misaran gements but conversed freely upon  with Bro s reletives which  allayed much prejudice as we trust  may the lord have mercy on their souls
5 October 1835 • Monday
Monday 5th returned home being  much fatiegued riding in the rain  spent the remainder of the day in  reading and meditation &c and [p. 4] in the evening attend[ed] a of  the , had a glorious time  and gave them many instruction concerni ng their duties for time to come, told them  that it was the will of God they should take  their families to next season, also  attend this fall the of the for the organization of the , and attend to the and to prepare their hearts in all humility  for an from with power from on high  to which they all agreed with one accord, and  seamed to be greatly rejoiced may God spare  the lives of the twelve with one accord to a good  old age for christ the redeemers sake amen
6 October 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 6 At home father or Elder Stevens  came to my house and loaned six hundred Dollars which greatly  releaved us out of our present difficulties  may God bless and preserve his soul  for ever— Afternoon called to visit   who was very sick with a  fever some better towards evening spent  the rest of the day in reading and meditation
7 October 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 7 went to visit   administerd some  mild herbs agreeable to the commandment  may God grant to restore him immedi ately to health for christ the redeemers sake  Amen This day bro and  Bro started for to  purchace good[s] to replenish the by land in the stage may God grant  in the name of Jesus that their lives may [p. 5] be spared and they have a safe Journey  and no accident or sickness of the least  kind befall them that they may return  in health and in safety to the bosom  of their families—
Blessed of the lord is even  the of the , for the shall never  be taken away from him while he liveth  and the time cometh that he shall overcome  all the narrow mindedness of his heart and  all his covetous desires that so easily besetteth  him and <he> shall deliver deal with a liberal hand  to the poor and the needy the sick and  the afflicted the widow and the fatherless  and marviously [marvelously] and miraculously shall  the Lord his God provid for him. even  that he shall be blessed with a <all the the> fullness  of the good things of this earth and his  seed after him from generation to generation  and it shall come to pass that according to  to the measure that he meeteth out with  a liberal hand unto the poor so shall  it be measured to him again by the  hand of his God even an hundred fold  Angels shall guard <his> house and shall  guard the lives of his posterity, and they shall  become very great and very numerous on  the earth, whomsoever he blesseth they shall  be blessed. whomsoever he curseth they shall  be cursed. and when his enemies seek  him unto his hurt and distruction let  him rise up and curse and the hand of God  shall be upon his enemies in Judgment [p. 6] they shall be utterly confounded and brought  to dessolation, therefor he shall be preserved unto  the utmost and his <life> day shall be precious in the  sight of the Lord. he shall rise up and shake him self as a lion riseth out of his nest and  roareth untill he shaketh the hills and as a  lion goeth forth among the Lesser beasts, so  shall the goings forth of him <be> whom the Lord  hath to exalt the poor and to humble  the rich, therefor his name shall be on  high and his rest among the sanctified
this afternoon recommenced translating the  ancient reccords
8 October 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 8th at home nothing of note transpired  of as we now recollect, < with  feelings of great anxiety—>
9 October 1835 • Friday
Friday 9th at home nothing  worthy of note transpired <on this day >
10 October 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 10th at home<, visited the house of verry fast>—
11 October 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 11th visited <again> who  was <in secret prayer in the morning the Lord said my servant shall live> I waited on him all this day with  my heart raised to god in the name of Jesus Christ  that he would restore him to health again, that  I might be blessed with his company and advise  esteeming it one of the greatest earthly blessings, to  be blessed with the society of Parents, whose maturer  years and experience, renders them, capable of  administering the most wholsom advise; at Evening  Bro. came in we called on the  Lord in mighty prayer in the name of Jesus  Christ, and on him, and and God heard and answered our  prayers to the great joy and satisfaction of  our souls, our aged arose and dressed  himself shouted and praised the Lord called [p. 7] Br who had retired to rest that  he might praise the Lord with us by joining  in Songs of praise to the most High
12 October 1835 • Monday
Monday 12th rode to in company with   to purchase some goods at W. Lyons  Store on our return we found a Mr. Bradly  lying across the road he had been thrown from  from his waggon was much injured by the fall
13 October 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 13th visited who was from his sickness indeed, which  caused us <to> marvel at the might power and  condesension of our Heavenly Father in answering  our prayers in his behalf
14 October 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 14th at home
15 October 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 15th Laboured in  s orchard gathering apples
16 October 1835 • Friday
Friday 16th was called into the to settle  some difficulties in that department, at evening  on the same day I  the Lord poured out his spirit on us and  we had a good time
17 October 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 17th called my  family together and aranged my domestick  concerns and domestic dismissed my boarders
18 October 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 18th attended meeting in the several who had been and blessed  several blessings childern with the blessings of the   Elder  preachd in the fore noon, and Elder  in the after noon, we had an interesting time
19 October 1835 • Monday
Monday 19th at home, exibited the records of  of antiquity to a number who called to see them
20 October 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 20th at home, preached at night in the  .
21 October 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 21st at home nothing [p. 8] of note transpired
22 October 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 22d at home attending  to my domestick concerns
23 October 1835 • Friday
Friday 23d at home attended the prayer meeting
24 October 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 24th Mr. Goodrich and his lady called  called to see the antient Records also called at Doct.   to see the mummies, Brs. Hawks & Carpenter  from visited us & taried over Sunday and  attended meeting—
25 October 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 25th attended meeting   preached in the fore noon, Elder   in the after noon, after which  Elder joined Br. & Sister in matrimony, and I blessed them with long  life and prosperity in the name of Jesus Christ,  at evening I attended prayer meeting opened it and  exorted, the brethren & Sister about one hour, the Lord  pourd out his spirit and some glorious things, were  spoken in the gift of toungs, and interpeted concer ning the redemption of
26 October 1835 • Monday
Monday 26th went to to attend the county  Court in company with Brs & , was called in question before this  Court for not doing military duty, and was fined  because we had not our minuets with  us for testimony to prove that was  clerk of the conference,— this testimony we should  have carried with us had it not been for the  neglect of our Council, or Lawyer, who did not  put us in possession of this information this we  feel was a want of fidelity to his client, and  we concider it a base insult <practised> upon us on the  account of our faith, that the ungodly might  have unlawful power over us and trample us  under their unhallowed feet; <&> in consequence  of this neglect a fine was imposed on [p. 9] of $20, including costs, for which Lawsuit, he was  oblieged to sell his cow, to defray the expenses of the  same, and I say in the name of Jesus Christ that  the money that they have thus unjustly taken shall  be a testimony against them and canker & eat their  flesh as fire
27 October 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 27th in the morning I was called to visit at  Br s was confined an[d] in  a verry dangerous situation, took one of  my horses and went to after  I went out into the field and bowed before the  Lord and called upon him in mighty prayer  in her behalf the word of the Lord came unto me  saying my Servant shall come and shall  have wisdom given him to deal prudently and  my handmaden shall be delivered of a living  child & be spared, he come in a bout one hour after  that and in the course of about 2. hours she was  delivered and thus what God had manifested to  me was fulfilled every whit, on the night of  the same day I preached in the to a  crowded congregation
28 October 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 28th at holm attending to my family  concerns &c
29 October 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 29th Br commenced  writing for me, & visit[ed] us  and while we set writing  passed our window just returned from the  East— commenced writing for me at  $15.00 p[e]r month I paid him $16.00 in advance  out of the agrees  to board himself, for which I agree to <allow him> four Dollars  more p[e]r. month making $19.00. I was then called  to appear before the which was [p. 10] setting to give my testimony in an action brought aga inst Br. for whiping his Daughter unrea sonably my testimony was in his favour, returned to  our writing room, went to after my large  journal, made some observations to concerning  the plan of which is to be built up hereafter  on this ground consecrated for a of .
while at the came in, in compa ny with , I was much rejoiced to see  him, we examined the mumies, returned home and   commenced writing in <my> journal a history  of my life, concluding 2d letter to  , which had begun   & with his Father & Mother called  to Visit us, his parents having lately arived here from  the East called to make enquiry concerning the coming  forth of the book of Mormon, & some  others came in I then set down and taught <related to> them the  history of the coming forth of the book the administra tion of the Angel to me the rudiments of the gospel  of Christ &c they appeared well satisfyed & I expect  to them in a few days, or this is my feelings upon  the subject altho they have not made any request  of this kind at present, went to the , the arose and adjourned on my return  observed that long debates were had. I replyed that  it was generally the case, that to[o] much, altercation  was generally indulged in, on both sides and their  debates protracted to an unprofitable length;  we were seated called to sup[p]er, after being seated around  the table observed to  that <the> thought had just occured to his mind that  perhaps in about one yea[r] from this time they might  be seated together around a table in on the land  of Zion [p. 11]
Sister Emma <> observed that she hoped it might  be the case that not only they but the rest of the of  the company present might be seated around her  table in the land of promise; the same sentiment  was reciprocated, from the company round the table  and my heart responded Amen God grant it, I  ask in the name of Jesus Christ, after sup[p]er I went  to the in company with and  some others that belong to my house hold I was  solicited to take a seat with the and  preside in a case of Sister Eliots [Mary Cahoon Elliott] I did so was called as testimony and began to  relate circumstances that had been brought before  the church and settled I objected against such testi mony the complainant Br. arose  and accused me of invalidating or doubting  s testimony which I had not done  nor did I desire to do I told him he was out of  place & asked him to set down he refused  I repeated my request he become enraged  I finally ordered him to set down he said he  would not unless I knocked him down I was  agitated in my feeling at on the account of his  stubournness and was about to call leave the  house, but requsted me not to <do so> I com plyed the house was brought to order after much  debate upon the subject and we proceded to  buisness & & his wife were both cleared  from the charges prefered against them
30 October 1835 • Friday
Friday 30th at home Mr. Fransis Porter called  from New York a member of the  Methodist Church, called to make some inquiry  about lands in this place whether there is any  farmes for sale that are valuable and whether [p. 12] a member of our church could move into this  vicinity and purchase lands and enjoy his own  possessions & property with out making it common  Stock, he had been requested to do so by some breth ren who live in the town of Jeff [Le Ray, Jefferson] Co N.Y  I replyed that he <I> had a valuable farm joining  the Lot that he <I> would sell & that there is  other lands for sale in this place and that we  have no commonstock business among us, that  every man enjoys his own property, or can if  he is disposed, liberally or illiberally to  the support of the poor & needy, or the building up  of , he also enquired how many members  there are in this church I told him that there  is about five or six hundred who commune  at our chapel and perhaps a thousand in this  vicinity:— at evening I was presented with a letter  from Br. the purport of which is  that he is censured by the brethren on the account  of what took place at the last night  and wishes to have the matter settled to the un derstanding of all, that he may not be censur ed unjustly, concidering that his cause was a  just one, and that he had been materially  injured; I replied that I thought we parted  with the best of feelings, that I am not to blame  on the account of the dissatisfaction of others, I  invited him to call and talk with me, and  that I would give <talk with> him in the spirit of meekness  and give him all the satisfaction I could.—  this reply was by letter copy retained
31 October 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 31st in the morning br.  came in and said he had been much troub led all night and had not slept any [p. 13] that something was wrong while talking br. came in according to my requst last  night observed that he must go to  the Store I invited him to stay he said he wo uld go and do his business & return he did  so while he was gone introduced  the subject of our difficulty at the , I  told him I did not want to converse upon  the subject untill returned, he soon came  in I then proposed to relate the occurrences of the  council before named and wherein I had been  out of the way I would confess it and ask his  forgivness, and then he should relate his story  and make confession wherein he had done wrong  he said he had not done wrong  and then leave it to br. &  to decide the matter between us and I would agree  to the decission & be satisfyed there with; he observed  that he had not done wrong, and that I was al ways determined to carry my points whether right  or wrong and therefore he would not stand an equ al chance with me; this was an insult, but I did  not reply to him in a harsh manner knowing his  inflamatory disposition, but tryed to reason with  him and show him the propriety of a complyance  with my request, I finally succeeded with the assistance  of in obtaining his assent to the propo sition that I had made. I then related my story  and wherein I had been wrong I confessed it and  asked his forgivness after I got through he made  his statements justifying himself throughout in  transgressing the order of the council & treating the  authority of the with contempt; after  he had got through began to make [p. 14] some remarks, in the spirit of meekness, he [] became  enraged, I joined in trying to calm his  stormy feelings, but to no purpose he insisted that  we intended to add abuse to injury, his passion  increased, he arose abruptly and declared that he  wanted no more to do with them us or the church  and said we might take his for he would  have nothing to do with us, he rushed out at the  door we tryed to prevail on him to stop, but all to  no purpose, he went away in a passion, and soon  sent his licence to me, he went home and spread  the levavin [leaven] of iniquity in among my brethren and  especially prejudiced the mind of  as I soon learned that he was in the streets  exclaiming against, me, which no doubt our  enemys rejoice at, and where the matter will  end I know not, but I pray God to forgive  him and th[e]m, and give them humility and  repentance, the feelings of my heart I cannot  express on this occasion, I can only pray my heav enly Father to open their eyes that they may dis cover where they stand, that they may extricate  themselves from the snare they have fallen into:  after dinner I rode out in company with and children, & some others, we  went to visit & family who live near  , we had an interesting visit at  as soon as I returned I was called upon to  Samuel Whitney & his Wife and Daughter after  baptism we returned to their house and offered  our thanks, in prayer I obtained a testimony that   would return and to the church  and repair the wrong he had done [p. 15]
1 November 1835 • Sunday
Sunday Morning November 1st 1835  Verily thus Saith the Lord unto me, his servant  Joseph Smith jun mine anger is kindle[d] against  my servant because of his  iniquities his covetous and dishonest principles  in himself and family and he doth not pur ge them away and set his house in order,  therefore if he repent not chastisment awaiteth  him even as it seemeth good in my sight  therefore go and declare unto him this <these> word<s>  I went imediately and delvired this message accord ing as the Lord commanded me I called  him in & read what the Lord had said  concerning him, he acknowledged that it  was verily so & expressed much humility,—  I then went to meeting preached  a fine discourse, in the after noon continued the servises of the day by  reading the 5th chapt. of Mathew also the laws  regulating the and made some  remarks upon them after which  was administered I then a num ber who had been & blessed a  number of children in the name of  Jesus Christ with the blessings of the , notice was then  given that the woud commence  on the on the morrow, I then dismissed the meeting,
2 November 1835 • Monday
Monday morning 2d was engaged in regu lating the affairs of the , I then had my  team prepared & and a   and a number of others went to   to Hear deliver a lectu re on the profession theory & practice of Physic [p. 16] we called at s, had our horses put  in the Stable took dinner, attended the lecture  was treated with great respect, throughout; returned  home, came to from to day;—   & also from the East  the question was agitated whether or Should go to  to make arangements respecting a book bindery  they refered to me for a decision, and thus  came the word of the Lord unto me saying  it is not my will that my servant should go to , but inasmuch as  he wishes to go and visit his relatives that he  may warn them to flee the wrath to come  let him go and see them, for that purpose  and let that be his only business, and behold  in this thing he shall be blessed with power  while to overcome their prejudices, Verily thus saith  the Lord Amen.
3 November 1835 • Tuesday
Thus came Tuesday 3d. Thus came the word of  the Lord unto me saying concerning the, <saying> 
behold they are under condemnation, because they  have not been sufficiently humble in my  sight, and in consequence of their covetous  desires, in that they have not dealt equally  with each other in the division of the moneys  which came into their hands, nevertheless some  of them, dealt equally therefore they shall be  rewarded, but Verily I say unto you they must  all humble themselves before Me, before they will  be accounted worthy to receive an  to go forth in my name unto all nations,  as for my Servant let the Eleven  humble themselves in prayer and in faith [p. 17]
I then went to assist in organizing the called to order and I made some rem arks upon the object of this School, and the great  necessity there is in <of> our rightly improving our time  and reigning up our minds to the a sense of the  great object that lies before us, viz, that that God has in store for the faithful  I then dedicated the School in the name of the  Lord Jesus Christ. after the School was dismissed  I attended a meeting at Br s, ses parents were blessed also his  child & named , at evening I preachd  at the to a crowded congregation
4 November 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 4th in morning, at home  attended all during the school hours,  made rapid progress in our studies, in the  evening, lectured on grammar, at home,  on this day Br , arived at this place from  
5 November 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 5th attended all  day, came in from the east  this morning I was called to visit who was sick, I took  with me and we prayed for and on him in the <name> of the Lord  Jesus and  
& came in and  desired to hear the revelation concerning  the , read to him them  they expressed some little dissatisfaction but  after examining their own hearts, they acc knowledged it to be the word of the Lord [p. 19] and said they were satisfied; after   came in and desired  also to hear, it read also after hearing it  he appeared perfectly satisfied; in the eveni ng lectured on Grammar
6 November 1835 • Friday
Friday morning 6th at home.  attended during the school hours  returned and spent the evening at home  I was this morning introduced to a man from  the east, after hearing my name he replied  remarked that I was nothing but a man:  indicating by this expression that he had sup posed that a person, <to> who<m> the Lord should see  fit to reveal his will, must be something more  than a man, he seems to have forgotten the  saying that fell from the lips of St. James, that  Elias was a man of like passions like unto  us, yet he had such power with God that  He in answer to his prayer, shut the heavens that  they gave no rain for the space of three years  and six months, and again in answer to his  prayer the heavens gave forth rain and the  earth brought forth fruit; and indeed such is  the darkness & ignorance of this generation that  they look upon it as incredible that a man  should have any intercourse with his Maker.
7 November 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 7th spent the day at  home attending to my domestic concerns;  The word <of the Lord> came to me saying, behold I am  well pleased with my servant  and my servant , because  of the integrity of their harts in laboring in  my vinyard for the salvation of the souls of  men, Verily I say unto you their sins are [p. 20] forgiven them, therefor say unto them in my name  that it is my will that they should tarry for a little  season and attend the , and also the for a wise purpose in me, even so amen
8 November 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 8th went to meeting in the  morning at the us[u]al hour, preached  a verry interesting discourse, in the after noon   preached; after preaching came forward to make some remarks  by way of confession, he had been previously  excommunicated from the church for lying  & for an attempt to seduce a female; his confess ion was not satisfactory to my mind <Uncle> arose and made some remarks  respecting the dealings of the  on the case of said . that is that he sho uld make a public confession of his crime  and have it published in the messenger and  Advocate, he proposed that should  now make his confession before the congregation  and then immediately observed that he had  forgiven , which was in contradiction  to the sentiment he first advanced, this I attr ibuted to an error in judgment not in design   then arose and verry abrup tly militated against <the sentiment of> , which  had a direct tendency to destroy his influence  and bring him into disrepute in the eyes of  the church, which was not right, he also  misrepresented s case and spread  darkness rather than light upon the subject  a vote was then called of the church was  then called on his case and he was restored  without any further confession; that he should [p. 21] be received into the church by  which was administered acordingly.
after I came home I took up a labour with   and convinced him that he  was wrong & he made his confession to my  satisfaction; I then went and laboured with   and succeded in convin cing him also of his error which he confessed  to my satisfaction.
The word of the Lord came unto me saying  that & President  are under condemnation before the Lord, for  their iniquities; I also took up a labour with   for leaving the meeting before <not partaking of the> , he made his confession; also  for the same leaving the meeting before sacram ent she made no reply, but manifested cont rition by weeping

Editorial Note
The following entry describes a visit to JS by , more commonly known as the Prophet Matthias. In Albany, New York, in 1830 and in , New York, in 1831, Matthews launched his career as a prophet with attempts to win over recent converts from Charles G. Finney’s revivals. In 1832, Matthews converted Elijah Pierson and a few of his Bowery Hill Kingdom disciples in . Following the death of Pierson, Matthews was charged with his murder. Although acquitted, Matthews was jailed for whipping his daughter and for contempt of court. Suffering from internal dissension, public spectacle, and Matthews’s four-month incarceration, Matthews’s kingdom crumbled. Three months after his release from county jail, Matthews was reported to be traveling in and asking for directions to . A few days later he arrived at the home of JS. His visit prompted JS to relate, as JS characterized it, a “brief history of the establishment of the Church of Christ in these last days.” A visitor later in the week heard a similar recounting, though one recorded in much less detail.

9–11 November 1835 • Monday–Wednesday
Monday morning 9th. after breckfast  Sister <Mary> Whitcher came in and wished to see  me, she I granted her request she gave a rela tion of her griveances which were, unfathonable  at present, and if true sore indeed, and I pray  my heavenly Father to bring the truth of her  case to light, that the reward due to evil doers  may be given them, and <that> the afflicted & oppressed  may be delivered;— while setting in my house  between the hours of nine <ten> & 10 11 this morning  a man came in, and introduced him self to me, calling <himself> self <by the name of> , his appearance was some  what < thing> singular, having a beard about 3 inches  in length which is quite grey, also his hair  is long and considerably silvered with age [p. 22] I should think he is about 50 or 55 years old, tall and  strait slender built of thin visage blue eyes, and fair com plexion, he wears a sea green frock coat, & pantaloons of  the same, black fur hat with narrow brim, and while  speaking frequently shuts his eyes, with a scowl on his  countinance; I made some enquiry after his name  but received no definite answer; we soon comm enced talking upon the subject of religion and af ter I had made some remarks concerning the bible  I commenced giving him a relation of the circum stances connected with the coming forth of the book  of Mormon, as follows— being wrought up in my  mind, respecting the subject of religion and looking  upon <at> the different systems taught the children of  men, I knew not who was right or who was wrong  and concidering it of the first importance that  I should be right, in matters that involved  eternal consequences; being thus perplexed in mind  I retired to the silent grove and bowd down before  the Lord, under a realising sense that he had said  (if the bible be true) ask and you shall receive  knock and it shall be opened seek and you shall  find and again, if any man lack wisdom let  him ask of God who giveth to all men libar ally and upbradeth not; information was what  I most desired at this time, and with a fixed  determination I to obtain it, I called upon the Lord  for the first time, in the place above stated or in  other words I made a fruitless attempt to pray, my  toung seemed to be swolen in my mouth, so that  I could not utter, I heard a noise behind me  like some person walking towards me, <I> strove again  to pray, but could not, the noise of walking seem ed to draw nearer, I sprung up on my feet, and [p. 23] and looked around, but saw no person or thing  that was calculated to produce the noise of wal king, I kneeled again my mouth was opened and  my toung liberated, and I called on the Lord in  mighty prayer, a pillar of fire appeared above  my head, it presently rested down upon my <me>  head, and filled me with joy unspeakable, a  personage appeard in the midst, of this pillar  of flame which was spread all around, and yet  nothing consumed, another personage soon appeard  like unto the first, he said unto me thy sins are  forgiven thee, he testifyed unto me that Jesus Christ  is the son of God; <and I saw many angels in this vision> I was about 14. years old  when I received this first communication; When  I was about 17 years old I saw another vision of  angels, in the night season after I had retired to  bed I had not been a sleep, when but was me ditating upon my past life and experiance,  I was verry concious that I had not kept the  commandments, and I repented hartily for  all my sins and transgression, and humbled  myself before Him; <whose eyes are over all things>, all at once the room was  iluminated above the brightness of the sun  an angel appeared before me, his hands and  feet were naked pure and white, and he  stood between the floors of the room, clothed <with>  in purity inexpressible, he said unto me I  am a messenger sent from God, be faithful  and keep his commandments in all things,  he told me of a sacred record which was  written on plates of gold, I saw in the vision  the place where they were deposited, he said the  indians, were the literal descendants of Abraham  he explained many things of the prophesies to  [p. 24] me, one I will mention which is this in Malachi  4 behold the day of the Lord cometh &c;  also that the Urim and Thumim, was hid up with  the record, and that God would give me power to  translate it, with the assistance of this instrument  he then gradually vanished out of my sight, or  the vision closed, while meditating on what I  had seen, the Angel appeard to me again and  related the same things and much more, also the  third time bearing the same tidings, and dep arted; during the time I was in this vision I did  not realize any thing else around me except  what was shown me in this communication:  after the vision had all passed, I found that it  was nearly day-light, the family soon arose, I  got up also:— on that day while in the field at  work with he asked me if I was sick  I replyed, I had but little strenght, he told me  to go to the house, I started and went part way  and was finally deprived deprived of my stren gth and fell, but how long I remained I do not  know; the Angel came to me again and comm anded me to go and tell , what I had  seen and heard, I did so, he wept and told  me that it was a vision from God to attend to it  I went and found the place, where the plates  were, according to the direction of the Angel, also  saw them, and the angel as before; the powers  of darkness strove hard against me, I called  on God, the Angel told me that the reason  why I could not obtain the plates at this time  was because I was under transgression, but to  come again in one year from that time, I did  so, but did not obtain them [p. 25] also the third and the fourth year, at which  time I obtained them, and translated them into  the english language; by the gift and power of  God and have been preaching it ever since.
While I was relating this brief history of the  establishment of the in these last  days, seemed to be highly entertained  after I had got through I observed that, the  hour of worship & time to dine had now arived  and invited him to tarry, which he concented to,
After dinner the conversation was resumed  and proceded to make some remarks  on the prophesies, as follows:
He observed that he was  aware that I could bear stronger meat than m any others, therefore he should open his mind  the more freely;— Daniel has told us that he is  to stand in his proper lot, in the latter days  according to his vision he had a right to shut  it up and also to open it again after many  days, or in the latter times; Daniels Image whose  head was gold, and body, armes, legs and feet  was composed of the different materials descr ibed in his vision represents different governm ents, the golden head was <to represent> Nebuchodnazer King  of Babylon, the other parts other kings & forms of gove rnment, which I shall not now mention in detail,  but confine my remarks, more particularly to the  feet of the Image; The policy of the wicked spir it, is to separate what God has joined togather  and unite what He has separated, which he  has succeded in doing to admiration, in the  present state of society, which is like unto Iron  and clay, there is confusion in all things, both [p. 26] both Political and religious, and notwithstanding  all the efforts that are made to bring about a un ion, society is remains disunited, and all attempts to <unite her>  are as fruitless, as to attemp to unite Iron & Clay.
The feet of the Image, is the government of these  , other Nations & kingdoms are looking  up to her for an example, of union fredom and  equal rights, and therefore worship her, like as  Daniel saw in the vision, although they are begining  to loose confidence in her, seeing the broils and  discord that distract, her political & religious hor izon this Image is characteristic of all governmen ts and institutions or most of them; as they begin  with a head of gold and terminate in the contemp ible feet of Iron & clay: making a splendid app earance at first, proposing to do much more than  the[y] can perform, and finally end in degradation  and sink, in infamy; we should not only start  to come out of Babylon but leav it entirely  lest we are overthrown in her ruins, we should  keep improving and reforming, twenty-fours hours  for improvement now is worth as much as a year  a hundred years ago; the spirit of the Fathers  that was cut down, or those that were under the  altar, are now rising this is the first resurection  the Elder that fall’s first will rise last; we should  not form any opinion only for the present, and  leave the result of futurity with God: I have ris en up out of obscurity, but was lookd. up to when  but a youth, in temporal things: It is not necess ary that God should give us all things at first  or in his first commission to us, but in his second.  John saw the angel deliver the gospel in the  last days, which would not be necessary if [p. 27] it was already in the world this expression  would be inconsistent, the small lights that  God has given, is sufficient to lead us out  of babylon, when we get out we shall have the  greater light. I told that I did not  understand him concerning the resurection  and wishd him to be more explanitory on the  subject; he replied that he did not feell im pressed by the spirit to unfold it further at  present, but perhaps he might at some  other time.
I then withdrew to do some buisness with another  gentleman that called to see me.
He [] informed that he was  born in Washington County New York. he says that all the rail roads canals and other improvements are  performed by spirits of the resurection.
The silence spoken of by John the Revelator  which is to be in heaven for the space of half  an hour, is between 1830 & 1851, during which  time the judgments of God will be poured  out after that time there will be peace.
Curiosity to see a man that was reputed  to be a jew caused many to call during  the day and more particularly at evening  suspicions were entertained that said  was the noted of , spoken  so much of in the public prints on account  of the trials he underwent in that place  before a court of justice, for murder mansl aughter comtempt of court whiping his Dau ghter &c for the two last crimes he was imp risoned, and came out about 4, months [p. 28] since, after some, equivocating he confessed that  he was realy : after supper I proposed  that he should deliver a lecture to us, he did  so sitting in his chair; he commenced by say ing God said let there be light and there was  light, which he dwelt upon through his disco urce, he made some verry exelent remarks  but his mind was evidently filled with dar kness, after he dismissed his meeting, and the  congregation disperced, he conversed freely upon  the circumstances that transpired in ,
His name is , he say[s] that  Joshua, is his priestly name.
during all this time I did not contradict  his sentiments, wishing to draw out all that I  could concerning his faith; the next morning  Tuesday 10th I resumed the conversation and  desired him to enlighten my mind more  on his views respecting the resurection, he says  that he poss[ess]es the spirit of his fathers, that he  is a litteral decendant of Mathias the Apo stle that was chosen in the place of Judas  that fell and that his spirit is resurected  in him, and that this is the way or scheme  of eternal life, this transmigration of soul  or spirit from Father to Son: I told him that  his doctrine was of the Devil that he was in  reality in possession of wicked and depraved  spirit, although he professed to be the spir it of truth, it self, also that he possesses the  soul of Christ; he tarried until Wednesday,  after breckfast I told him, that my God told me  that his God is the Devil, and I could not keep him  any longer, and he must depart, and so I for once  cast out the Devil in bodily shape, & I believe a murderer [p. 29] on monday th[e] 9th of [blank]   came here to ask advice of me concerning  purchasing lands, whether it is best for him to  purchase in this vicinity and move into this  church, or not, he says that he cannot arrange  his buisness so as to go to the next  spring; I advised him to come here, and  settle untill he could move to
11 November 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday Morning 11th. at home  attended during school Hours, returned  home and spent the evening, around my  fire-side, teaching my family the science of  grammar; it commensed snowing this after non, the wind is verry heavy indeed
12 November 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 12th attended  again, during school Hours, rain & snow is  still falling, it is about one inch in dept[h], the  wind is verry heavy, and the weather extremly  unpleasant, the labours [laborers] who commenced finis hing the out side of the house were  oblieged to brake off from their buisness at  the commencement of this storm viz on the 11th..  they commenced plasturing and finishing the  out side on Monday the 2. Inst. this job is let  to & , <at $1,000> they have progressed  rapidly since they commenced
has the job of plastering  the inside of the through, out at  $15.00. he commenced on Monday the 9th.  and is continueing it notwithstanding the  inclemency of the weather. This evening viz  the 12th at 6 oclock meet with the . by their request, 9 of them were present [p. 30] council opened by singing & prayer, and I made  some remarks as follows;— I am happy in the  enjoyment of this opportunity of meeting with this  council on this occasion, I am satisfyed that the  spirit of the Lord is here, and I am satisfied  with all the breth[r]en present, and I need not say  that you have my utmost confidence, and that  I intend to uphold, you to the uttermost, for I  am well aware that you do and delight in so do ing have to sustain my character my charcter  against the vile calumnies and reproaches of  this ungodly generation and that you delight  in so doing:— darkness prevails, at this time  as it was, at the time Jesus Christ was about to  be crucified, the powers of darkness strove to  obscure the glorious sun of righteousness that  began to dawn upon the world, and was soon  to burst in great blessings upon the heads of  the faithful, and let me tell you brethren  that great blessings awate us at this time  and will soon be poured out upon us  if we are faithful in all things, for we  are even entitled to greater blessings than  they were, because the[y] had the person of  Christ with them, to instruct them in the  great plan of salvation, his personal presence  we have not, therefore we need great faith  on account of our peculiar circumstances  and I am determined to do all that I can  to uphold you, although I may do many  things <invertaintly [inadvertently]> that are not right in the sight of  God; you want to know many things  that are before you, that you may know  how how to prepare your selves for the [p. 31] great things that God is about to bring to  pass; but there is on[e] great deficiency or  obstruction, in the way that deprives us of  the greater blessings, and in order to make  the foundation of this church complete and  permanent, we must remove this obstruct ion, which is to attend to certain duties that  we have not as yet attended to; I supposed  I had established this church on a perma nent foundation when I went to the and indeed I did so, for if I had  been taken away it would have been eno ugh, but I yet live, and therefore God  requires more at my hands:— The item  to which I wish the more particularly  to call your attention to night is the , this we have  not done as yet but it is necessary now  as much as it was in the days of the  Saviour, and we must have a place pre pared, that we may attend to this ordi nance, aside from the world; we have  not desired much from the hand of  the Lord, with that faith and obediance  that we ought, yet we have enjoyed great  blessings, and we are not so sensible of this  as we should be; When or wher has God  suffered one of the witnesses or  of this church <to> fall? never nor nowhere  amidst all the calamities and judgments  that have befallen the inhabitants of  the earth his almighty arm has sus tained us, men and Devils have raged  and spent the malice in vain. [p. 32] we must have all things prepared and  call our as the Lord has  commanded us, that we may be able to  accomplish his great work: and it must  be done in Gods own way, the must be prepared, and the sol em assembly called and organized in  it according to the order of the house of God  and in it we must attend to the ; it was never intended  for any but , it is calcul ated to unite our hearts, that we may be one  in feeling and sentiment and that our faith  may be strong, so that satan cannot over thro w us, nor have any power over us,— the   you are so anxious about you  cannot comprehend now, nor could Gab riel explain it to the understanding of yo ur dark minds, but strive to be prepared  in your hearts, be faithful in all things  that when we meet in the solem assembly  that is such as God shall name out of all  the official members, will meet, and we  must be clean evry whit, let us be faithful  and silent brethren, <and> if God gives you a m anifestation, keep it to yourselves, be watchful  and prayerful, and you shall have a prelude  of those joys that God will pour out on that  day, do not watch for iniquity in each other  if you do you will not get an endowment  for God will not bestow it on such; but if we  are faithful and live by every word that  procedes forth from the mouth of God I will  venture to prophesy that we shall get a [p. 33] blessing that will be worth remembering  if we should live as long as John the  Revelator, our blessings will be such as  we have not realized before, nor in this  generation. The order of the  has and ever will be the same, even  after Christ comes, and after the terminat ion of the thousand years it will be the  same, and we shall finally roll into the   of God and enjoy it  forever;— you need an brethren  in order that you may be prepared and  able to overcome all things, and those that  reject your testimony will be damned  the the lame made  to walk the deaf to hear and the blind  to see through your instrumentality;
But let me tell you that you will not  have power after the endowment to heal  those who have not faith, nor to benifit  them, for you might as well expect to  benefit a devil in hell as such a<n> one,  who is possessed of his spirit and are will ing to keep it for they are habitations  for devils and only fit for his society  but when you are endowed and prepared  to preach the gospel to all nations kindred  and toungs in there own languages  you must faithfully warn all and  bind up the testimony and up the  law and the destroying angel will  follow close at your heels and execu te his tremendeous mission upon the  children of disobediance, and destroy [p. 34] the workers of iniquity, while the saints will  be gathered out from among them and  stand in holy places ready to meet the  bridegroom when he comes.—
I feel disposed to speak a few words more  to you my brethren concerning the , all who are prepared and are suff iciently pure to abide the presence of the Savi our will see him in the .
The brethren expressed their gratifycation  for the instruction I had given them, we then  closed by prayer,— I then returned home  and retired to rest
13 November 1835 • Friday
Friday 13th attended  during school hours, returned home after  School; Mr Messenger [George Messinger Jr.] of Chenango  Co.N. Y. came in to make some enquiry  about ’s family he is a Universalian  minister we entered into conversation upon  religious subjects, we went to ’s and spent the evening in convers ation, we preachd the gospel to him, and bore  testimony to him of what we had seen and  heard, he attempted to raise some obje ctions but, the force of truth bore him  down, and he was silent, although un believing; returned home and retired  to rest
14 November 1835 • Saturday
Saturday morning 14th  Thus came the word of the Lord unto  me saying:
verily thus saith the the  Lord unto my servant Joseph  concerning my servant , behold [p. 35]
A Gentleman called this after noon  by the name of of   Clemon [Clermont] Co. Ohio, he called  to make enquiry about the establish ment of the and to be instructed  more perfectly in our doctrine &c  I commenced and gave him a brief  relation of my experience while in my [p. 36] juvenile years, say from 6, years old up to the  time I received the first visitation of Angels which  was when I was about 14, years old and also  the the visitations that I received afterward, concerning  the book of Mormon, and a short account of  the rise and progress of the church, up to this, date  he listened verry attentively and seemed highly  gratified, and intends to unite with the Church  he is a verry candid man indeed and I am  much pleased with him.
15 November 1835 • Sunday
On Sabath morning the 15th he [] went with  me to meeting, which was held in the on account of the not being  finished plastering; prea ched on the subject of men’s being called to  preach the gospel and their qualifications  &c we had a fine discourse it was verry  interesting indeed; was well  satisfied, he came home with me and dined.
Said has been a member of the  Methodist Church, and was excommunicated  for receiving, the Elders of the church of the  latter-day Saints into his house
Went to meeting in the afternon, before part aking of the s case  was agitated again, and settled after much  controversy, and he retained in the church  by making an humble acknowledement  before the church, and concenting to have  his confession published in the Messenger  and advocate, after which the  of the Lord Supper was administered, and  the meeting closed, verry late,— returned  home and spent the evening.— [p. 37]
16 November 1835 • Monday
Monday the 16th at home, dictated a  letter for the Advocate, also one to . called to council  with me Elder Strong and some others
Copy of a Letter from   
Dear sir having a few leisure moment  I have at last concluded to do what my own  Judgment has long dictated would be right  but the allurements of many vices has long  retarded the hand, that would wield the  pen to make intelligent the communication  that I wish to send to you: And even now that  ambition which is a prevaling and predominant  principles among the great mass of natural men  even now forbids that plainness of sentiment  with which I wish to unbosom my feelings,  write. For know assuredly sir to you I wish  to unbosom my feelings, and unravil the  secrets of my heart: as before the omnicient  Judge of all the earth.
Be not surprised when I declare unto  you, as the spirit will bear reccord that  my faith is firm and unshaken in the  things of the everlasting gospel as it is  proclaimed by the servants of the latter- day saint.
Dear brother Joseph (If I may be allow ed the expression) when I considder the happy  times and peaseful moments, and pleasant seasons  I have enjoyed with you, and and this people;  contrasted with my now degraded state; together with  the high, and important station I have held before [p. 38]
and as I desire to know the will of God  concerning me; Believing it is my duty to m ake known unto you my real situation.
I shall therefore, dispasionately procede to give  a true and untarnished relation; I need not  tell you that in former times, I have preached  the word; and endeavored to be instant in  season out of season, to reprove rebuke exhort  and faithfully to discharge that trust repo sed in me. But Oh! with what grief & lame ntable sorrow and anguish do I have to relate  that I have fallen, from that princely station  where unto our God, has called me. Reasons  why are unnecessary. May the fact suffice;  and believe me when I tell you, that I have  sunk myself, (since my last separation from  this boddy) in crimes of the deepest dye, and  that I may the better enable you to understand  what my real sins are, I will mention (although  pride forbids it) some that I am not guilty  of, my <hands> have not been stained with inocent  blood; neither have I lain couched around  the cottages of my fellow men to seize and car ry off the booty; nor have I slandered my ne ighbor, nor bourn fals testimony, nor taken  unlawful hire, nor oppressed the widdow  nor fatherless, neither have I persecuted the  Saints. But my hands are swift to do iniq uity, and my feet are fast running in  the paths of vice and folly; and my heart [p. 39]
Now hear my prayer and suffer me to br eak forth in the agony of my soul. O ye  Angels! that surround the throne, <of God,> Princes of  heaven, that excell in strength, ye who are  clothed with transcendant brightness, plead  O plead for one of the most wretched  of the sons of men. O ye heavens! whose  azure arches rise immensely high and st rech immeasurably wide, grand ampith eater of nature, throne of the eternal God  bow to hear the prayer of a poor wretched  bewildered way wanderer to eternity, O thou  great Omnicient & omnipresent Jehovah,  thou who siteth upon the throne before  whom all things are present, thou maker  moulder & fashioner of all things visible and  invisable breath[e] o breath[e] into the ears of  thy servant the Prophet, words sutably ad apted, to my case, and situation, speak  once more, make known thy will conc erning me, which favours I ask in the  name of the Son of God Amen
N.B I hope you will not let any buis iness prevent you from answering this lett er in hast[e]
Yours Respectfully
to Joseph Smith [p. 41]
Copy of a Letter sent in answer to his
Nov. 16th 1835
I have recieved  your letter of the 28th Sept. 1835, and  I have read it twice, and it gave me  sensations that are better imagined than  described; let it suffice, that I say the  verry flood-gates of my heart were broken  up: I could not refrain from weeping,  I thank God, that it has entered into  your heart, to try to return to the Lord,  and to his people; if it so be, that he will  have mercy upon you.
I have inquired of the Lord concerning  your case, these words came to me
Verily thus saith the Lord unto you;  let him who was my servant ,  return unto me;— and unto the bosom of  my Church, and forsake all the sins  wherewith he has offended against me  and persue from hence forth a virtuous  and upright life, and remain under  the direction of those whom I have app ointed to be pillars, and heads of my  Church, and behold, saith the Lord, your  God; his sins shall be blotted out  from under heaven, and shall be forgotten  from among men, and shall not come  up in mine ears, nor be recorded as <a> me morial against him, but I will lift [p. 42]
Therefore let him prepare himself speed ily and come unto you; even to  and inasmuch as he shall harken unto  all your council from henceforth he shall be  restored unto his former state, and shall  be saved unto the uttermost, even as the Lord  your God liveth Amen.
Thus you see my dear Brother the willing ness of our heavenly Father to forgive sins  and restore to favour all those who are willing  to humble themselves before him, and confess  their sins and forsake them, and return to  him with full purpose of heart (acting  no hypocrisy) to serve him to the end.
Marvle not that the Lord has condescen ded to speak from the heavens and give  you instructions whereby you may learn  your duty, he has heard your prayers, and  witnessed your humility; and holds forth  the hand of paternal affection, for your  return; the angels rejoice over you, while  the saints are willing to recieve you again  into fellowship.
I hope on the recipt of this, you will  not loose any no time in coming to [p. 43]
please give my respects to you  family, and bee assured I am yours in  the bonds of the
Joseph Smith Jun
on this evening, viz the 16th a council was  called at my house to council with Father   on the subject of his moov ing to the ; I had previously told  him that the Lord had said that he  had better go to the , next Spring:  however he wished a council, called, the cou ncil met President arose and  said the spirit manifested to him that  it was his duty to go; also others bore the  same testimony.
The same night that I received the  word of the Lord on case,  he had, desired that I would inquire  at the hand of the Lord whether it was [p. 44] his duty to be here, or wait until  he returned home;— The word of the Lord ca me to unto me saying, that had  better not be baptised here, and that he  had better not return by water, also that  there were three men that were seeking his  destruction, to be ware of his eneys [enemies]
17 November 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 17th exibited <the Alphabet> some of  the ancient records to and some  others, went with him to to  see the Mumies, he we then took the parting  hand, and he started for home, being  strong in the faith of the gospel of Christ  and determined to obey the requiremen ts of the same.
I returned home and spent the day  dictating and comparing letters.
This has been a fine pleasant day altho ugh cool, this Evening at early candlelight  I pr[e]ached at the , returned home  and retired to rest,
18 November 1835 • Wednesday
Thursday <Wednesday> 18th at home in the  fore noon, untill about 11, oclock. I then went  to ’s, to preach his fathers  funeral Sermon, by the request of the family  I preached on the subject of the resurection,  the congregation were verry attentive   and went  with me to the funeral, we rode in a  waggon, had a pleasant ride, the weather  was pleasant, when we went. but cloudy  and cool when we returned [p. 45]
at evening Father  and Mother, and wife Sister in law, came in  and invited me and to go with  them & visit & family was unwell and could not go;  however I and went, when  we got there, we found that some of  the young Elders, were about engaging  in a debate, upon the subject of  miracles, the question was this; was or  was it not the design of Christ to est ablish his gospel by miracles,
After an interesting debate of three  hours or more, during which time much  talent was displayed, it was decided  by the presidents of the debate in the  negative; which was a righteous descision  I discovered in this debate, much warmth  displayed, to[o] much zeal for mastery, to[o]  much of that enthusiasm that chara cterises a lawyer at the bar, who is  determined to defend his cause right  or wrong. I therefore availed myself  of this favorable opportunity, to drop  a few words upon this subject by way  of advise, that they might improve their  minds and cultivate their powers of  intellect in a proper manner, that they  might not incur the displeasure of  heaven, that they should handle  sacred things verry sacredly, and with  a due deference to the opinions of others  and with an eye single to the glory of  God [p. 46]
19 November 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 19th went in company with   & to see how the work men prospered in finishing the ; the  masons on the inside had commenced  puting on the finishing coat of plastureing,  on my return I met &  and conversed with them upon the subject  of their being disaffected. I found that they  were not so, as touching the faith of the chu rch but with some of the members:
I returned home and spent the day in  : on this  has been a warm & pleasant day—
20 November 1835 • Friday
Friday 20th in morning at home:  the weather is warm but rainy, we spent the  day in , and made rapid progress
At Evening, returned  from , bringing with him a qu antity of Hebrew book’s for the benefit of the  , he presented me with a Hebrew  bible, lexicon & Grammar, also a Greek Lex icon and Websters English Lexicon.
had a prosperous jo urney, according to the prayers of the saints  in
21 November 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 21st at home, spent the  day in examining my books and study ing <the> my hebrew alphabet, at evening  met with our to make some  arrangments about a Teacher, it was  decided by the voice of the to send [p. 47] to for a Jew to teach us the  language, if we could get released from  the engagement we had made with   to teach the language, having  asertained that he was not qualified to  give us the knowledge we wish to acqu ire
22 November 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 22d went to meeting at  the us[u]al hour, preached  from the 7th Chapt of Mathew; ’s brother in Law & Some other relat ives were at meeting, in the after noon  the meeting was held in the  also in the evening had a meeting, and   who had withdrawn from  the church made application, to return  after giving him a severe chastisment, he  was recieved, and his restored to  him; when the case of was  introduced, we organized into a regular  , was chosen Clerk  and after conciderable altercation upon the  subject & keen rebuke he was restored by  the voice of the council & church & the  clerk ordered to give him his licence as  above stated. On this night we had  a snow storm
23 November 1835 • Monday
Monday 23d Several brethren  called to converse with me, and see  the records; recd. a letter from , spent the day in conversing, and <in>  studying, the hebrew, <language>
This has been a stormy day [p. 48]
24 November 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 24th at home, spent the  fore noon, instructing those that called to inquire  concerning the things of God, in the last da ys: in the after-noon, we ; I had an invitation, to attend  a wedding at Br. ’s in the evening  also to solemnize the ,  <between & > I and , went, when we arrived a  conciderable company, had collected, the   & came in, and took their  seats, which gave me to understand that  they were ready, I requesteded them to arise  and join hands, I then remarked that  marriage was an institution of h[e]aven  institude [instituted] in the garden of Eden, that it  was necessary that it should be Solemnized  by the authority of the everlasting ,  before joining hands however, we attended  prayers. I then made the remarks above  stated; The ceremony was original <with me> it was in  substance as follows, You covenant to be each  others companions through life, and discharge  the duties of husband & wife in every respect  to which they assented, I then pronounced  them husband & Wife in the name of God  and also pronounced the blessings that the  Lord confered upon adam & Eve in the gar den of Eden; that is to multiply and replen ish the earth, with the addition of long life  and prosperity; dismissed them and returned  home.— The weather is freezing cold, some snow  on the ground [p. 49]
25 November 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 25th spent the day in  Translating.— To-day & arived here from ; <the latter  says that he has no doubt, but that a dose of poison  was administered to him in a boll of milk but God delivered him>
26 November 1835 • Thursday
Thursday 26th at home, we spent  the day in  from the papyrus.— I am severely afflicted  with a cold.— to day and   arrived from
27 November 1835 • Friday
Friday 27th much afflicted  with my cold, yet able to be about  and I am determined to overcom in the  name of the Lord Jesus Christ,— spent  the day in reading Hebrew at home.
The weather continues cold and unp leasant.— my scribe being aff licted with a cold, asked me to  on him in the name of the Lord I did so<, and in return I asked him to lay his hands on me & .—>
Prayer • 23 October 1835
Copy of a prayer offered up.  on the 23d day of Oct 1835, by the foll owing individuals, at 4 oclock P.M. viz.  Joseph Smith jn, ; , ,  , , , and assem bled and united in prayer, with one  voice before the Lord, for the following  blessings:
That the Lord will give us means su fficient to deliver us from all our afflictions  and difficulties, wherein we are placed  by means of our debts; that he will open  the way and
28 November 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 28th at home, spent the  morning in compareing, our journal.—
This Elder called this mor ning to see me, he lives in  K.Y about three miles above .
I am conciderably recovered from my  cold, & I think I shall be able in a few  days to , with the blessing  of God.— The weather is still cold and sto rmy, the snow is falling, & winter seems to  be closing in verry fast, all nature shrinks  before the chilling blast<’s> of rigid winter.—
above mentioned, has been  biten by a mad Dog some three or four [p. 51] years since, has doctered, much, and received  some benefit by so doing, but, is much afflicted  notwithstanding, he came here that he might  be benefited by the prayers of the church, acco rdingly we prayed for and  on him, in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ  and him with oil, and , praying our heavenly Father to hear  and answer our prayers according to our faith
29 November 1835 • Sunday
Sunday morning 29th went to m eeting at the us[u]al hour preachd  and in the afternoon; their  discourses were well adapted to the times in  which we live, and the circumstances un der which we are placed, their words were  words of wisdom, like apples of gold in  picture’s of silver, spoken in the simple acc ents of a child, yet sublime as the voice  of an angels, the saints, appeared to be much  pleased with the beautiful discourses of  these two fathers in Israel; after these  servises closed, three of the  came forward and recieved their blessing
Solon Foster was to the office of  an ; the was then  administered, and the meeting closed.
returned home and spent the evening.  The storm continues, the weather is verry  cold [p. 52]
30 November 1835 • Monday
Monday morning 30th yet the snow  is falling, and is sufficiently deep for  sleighing, this is an uncommon storm for  this country, at this season of the year
spent the day in writing a letter for the  Messenger & Advocate on the Subject of  the ;— this afternoon, called to see me, he is an old  acquaintance of mine, from  New York, shewed him the Egyptian re cords
1 December 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday December 1st 1835, at home  spent the day in writing, for the M[essenger] & Advoc ate, the snow is falling and we have fine  sleighing.
2 December 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday. 2ond a fine morning  I made preparation, to ride to , with   and children, family, also , we had our sleigh and horses, prepared  and set out, when we arived were passing  through , we overtook a team  with two men on the sleigh. I politely asked  them to let me pass, they granted my req uest, and as we passed them, they bawled  out, do you get any revelation lately, with  an adition of blackguard that I did not  understand, this is a fair sample of the  character of inhabitants, who  are ready to abuse and scandalize, men  who never laid a straw in their way, and  infact those whos faces they never saw, and  cannot, bring an acusation, against, either [p. 53] of a temporal or spirtual nature; except  our firm belief in the fulness of the gospel  and I was led to marvle that God at the  long suffering and condescention of our hea venly Father, in permitting, these ungodly  wretches, to possess, this goodly land, which  is the indeed as beautifully situated, and  its soil as fertile, as any in this region of  country, and its inhabitance, as wealthy  even blessed, above measure, in temporal  things, and fain, would God bless, them  with, with spiritual blessings, even eter nal life, were it not for their evil he arts of unbelief, and we are led to cry  in our hearts mingle our prayers with  those saints that have suffered the like  treatment before us, whose souls are under  the altar crying to the Lord for vengance  upon those that dwell upon the earth  and we rejoice that the time is at hand  when, the wicked who will not repent will  be swept <from the earth> with the besom of destruction  and the earth become an inheritance  for the poor and the meek.—
when we arived at we called  at Sister , and left  and family to visit her while we rode  into Town to do some buisness, returned  called and visited
Returned and dined with , and returned home, had a  fine ride the sleighing, is fine <good> and  weather pleasant— [p. 54]
3 December 1835 • Thursday
Thursday the 3d at home, wrote a letter  to , Michigan Michigan, another  to Clay co. Mo. at, home  all day,— at Evening, was invited with , to  attend, at , to join &   in mattrimony, we found  a verry pleasant and respectable company, waiting  when, we arived, we opened our interview with  singing & prayer, after which, I delivered an ad dress, upon the subject of matrimony, I then in vited the, <parties> couple to arise, who were to be joined  in wedlock, I and, solemnized the institution  in a brief manner, and pronounced them  husband and wife in the name of God  according to the articles, and covenants  of the , closed by singing  and prayer, took some refreshment, and  retired; having spent the evening, agreeab ly
4 December 1835 • Friday
Friday 4th to day, in compa ny, with , we drew, three  hundred and fifty Dollars, out of , on three months credit, for which  we gave, the names of   , & Newel  , I also settled with Br.  , and , and  paid said $20045 two hundred  and fortify forty five dollars, I also paid,  or have it in my power to pay,  for which, blessing, I feel hartily, to thank  my heavenly Father, and ask him, in the  name of Jesus Christ, to enable us to extricate [p. 55] ourselves, from all the embarasments whatever  that we may not be brought into disre pute, in any respect, that our enemys may  not have any power over us;— spent the day  at home, devoted some time in studying <the> he brew, language.— this has been a warm  day with, some rain; our snow is melting  verry fast,— This evening, a Mr. of Ohio called to  see me on Saturday <the subject> of religion, he  is a member of the close communion ba ptise Church, he said he had come to  enquire concerning the faith of our church  having heard many reports, of the  worst character about us, he seemed to  be an honest enquirer after truth. I spent  the evening in talking with him, I found  him to be an honest candid man, and  no particular peculiarities about him, only  his simplisity, he tarried overnight with  me, and acknowledged in the <morning> that although  he had thought he knew something about  religion he was now sensible that he knew  but little, which was the greatest, trait of  wisdom that I could discover in him
5 December 1835 • Saturday
Saturday 5th the weather  is cold and freezing, and the snow is  falling moderately, and there is a pros pect of sleighing again, spent the fore noon in studying, hebrew with & , I am  labouring under some indisposition of health  laid down and slept a while, and [p. 56] and arose feeling tolerable well through the  blessings of God,— I received a letter to day  from , N. Y also  another from, s mother in law from   N. Y of no consequence as to  what it contained, but cost me 25, cents for  postage, I mention this as it is a common  occurence, and I am subjected to a great  deal of expence in this way, by those who  I know nothing about, only that they are  destitute of good manners, for if people  wish to be benefited with information from  me, common respect and good breeding  woud dictate, them to pay the postage on  their letters.—
6 December 1835 • Sunday
Sunday 6th 1835, went to meet ing at the us[u]al hour, preached  a splendid discourse, in the after, <noon> we had  an exortation, and .— Br. Draper  insisted on leaving the meeting, some 2, or 3 we eks, since, before communion, and would not  be prevailed upon to tarry a few moments  although, we invited him to do so as we  did not wish to have the house thrown  into confusion, he observed that he would  not if we excluded him from the chu rch, to day, he attempted to make a  confession, but it was not satisfactory to  me, and I was constrained by the spirit  to deliver him over to the bufetings of Satan.  untill he should humble himself, and  repent, of his sins, and make a satisfact ory confession before the Church— [p. 57]
7 December 1835 • Monday
Monday 7th received a letter from  , and was much rejoiced  to hear from, him, and of his prosperity in  proclaiming the gospel, wrote him a letter  requesting, him to return to this place,
Spent the day in reading the hebrew.  Mr. called and to take the  parting hand with me, and remarked  that he had been in darkness all his  days, but had now found the light  and intended to obey it, also a num ber of brethren called this Evening to  see the records, I exibited and explained  them to their satisfaction. We have fine  Sleighing
8 December 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday morning the 8th  at holm, spent the day in reading hebrew  in company with, Br. & ,
In the evening I preached, as us[u]al at  the , had great liberty in speaking  the congregation, were attentive, after the servises closed  the brethren proposed to come and draw wood for me
9 December 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday 9th at home,  the wind is strong and chilly, from the  South, and their is a prospect of a storm   came in this morning and  made me a present, of 12, dollars which  he held in a note against me, may  God bless him for his liberality, also  James Aldrich, sent me my note  by the hand of , on which [p. 58] there was 12, dollars, due, and may God bless  him, for his kindness to me
also the brethren whose names are written below  opened the hearts in great liberality and payed  <me> at the the sums set oposite  their respective names
Wm. Felshaw3.00
Harlow Crosier.50
Zemira Draper1.00
with the adition of the 2, notes above24.00
My heart swells with gratitude inex pressible when I realize the great condescen tion of my heavenly Fathers, in opening  the hearts of these, my beloved brethren [p. 59] to administer so liberally, to my wants  and I ask God in the name of Jesus  Christ, to multiply, blessings, without num ber upon their heads, and bless me with  much wisdom and understanding, and dis pose of me, to the best advantage, for my  brethren, and the advancement, of thy cause  and Kingdom, and whether my days are  many or few whether in life or in death  I say in my heart, O Lord let me  enjoy the society of such brethren
To day Elder Tanner brought me  the half of a fat[te]ned hog for the be[ne] fit of my family.
And a few days since Elder brought me a quarter of beef  and may all the blessings, that are  named above, be poured upon their  heads, for their kindness toward me—
10 December 1835 • Thursday
of <Wednesday <Thursday>> morning 10th  a beautiful morning, indeed, and fine  sleighing, this day my brethren, meet  according, to previous arangement, to chop  and haul wood for me, and they have  been verry industrious, and I think they  have supplyed me, with my winters  wood, for which I am sincerely grateful  to each and every, one of them, for this  expression of their, goodness towards me
And in the name of Jesus Christ  I envoke the rich benediction of heavn  to rest upon them, even all and their  families, and I ask my heavenly Father [p. 60] to preserve their health’s and those of their  wives and children, that they may have stren gth. of body to perform, their, labours, in their  several ocupations in life, and the use and  activity of their limbs, also powers of intellect  and understanding hearts, that they may  treasure up, wisdom, and understanding, until  and inteligence, above measure, and be preserved  from plagues pestilence, and famine, and from  the power of the adversary, and the hands of  evil designing, men and have power over all  their enemys; and the way be prepared be fore them, that they may journey to the land  of and be established, on their inherit ances, to enjoy undisturbe[d], peace and happi ness for ever, and ultimately, to be crowned  with everlasting life in the  of God, which blessings I ask in the name  of Jesus of Nazareth. Amen
I would remember Elder  who was the first one that proposed to  the brethren, to assist me, in, obtaining wood  for the use of my family, for which I  pray my heavenly Father, to bless <him> with  all the blessings, named above, and I shall  ever remember him with much gratitude, for  this testimony, of benevolence and respect, and  thank the great I am, for puting into his  heart, to do me this kindness, and I  say in my heart, I will trust in thy  goodness, and mercy, forever, for thy  wisdom and benevolence <O Lord> is unbounded  and beyond the comprehension; of men  and all of thy ways cannot be found out [p. 61]
This afternoon, I was called in company  with President , to visit, Sister  , who lives at Elder Booths  we found her verry sick, and so much  deranged, that She did not, recognize her  friends, and intimate acquaintences, we  prayed for and  her in the name of Jesus Christ, and  commanded her in his name to receive  he[r] senses, which was immediately restored  to her we also asked a healing blessing
prayed that she might be  ; she said she was  better.— On our return we found the brethren  engaged, in putting out the  which had taken fire, and after labour ing for about one hour, against the <this> dist ructive, element they succeded in conquering  it, and, probably will save about one fourth  part of the lumber, that was in it, how  much loss the committee have sustained by  this fire I do not know but it is conciderable  as their was much lumber in the
There was about 200 brethren engaged  on this occasion and displayed, much  activity, and interest, for which they dese rve much credit.
This evening I spent at hom[e], a nu mber of brethren called. to see the records  which I exibited to them, and they were  much pleased with their interview [p. 62]
11 December 1835 • Friday
Thursday Friday morning the 11th a fire broke  out in a shoe-makers shop owned by , but was soon, extinguished, by the  active exertions of the brethren, but the family  were much alarmed, the shop being connected  with the<ir> house <dwelling> house, they carryed their  furniture into the street, but not much  damage was sustained,— This is a pleasant  morning, and their is a prospect of a thaw
Spent the day at home, in reading, and in structing, those who called for advise,— to day Elder  Dayly & his wife left for home.
12 December 1835 • Saturday
Friday Saturday morning 11th <12th> at  home, spent the fore noon in reading, at  about 12 oclock a number of young person[s]  called to see the records Egyptian records  I requested to exibit them, he did  so, one of the young ladies, who had been  examining them, was asked if they had the  appearance of Antiquity, she observed with an  air of contempt that they did not, on hear ing this I was surprised at the ignorance  she displayed, and I observed to her that  she was an anomaly in creation for  all the wise and learned that had  ever examined them, without hesitation  pronounced them antient, I further re marked that, it was downright wickedn ess ignorance bigotry and superstition  that caused her to make the remark,  and that I would put it on record, and  I have done so because it is a fair sam ple of the prevailing spirit of the times [p. 63] showing that the victims of priestcraft  and superstition, would not believe though  one should rise from the dead.
At evening attended a debate, at Br. s, the question proposed to debate  upon was, as follows.— was it necessary for  God to reveal himself to man, in order for  their happiness,— I was on the affirmative  and the last One to speak on that side of  the question,— but while listning, with interest  to the, ingenuity displayed, on both sides of  the qu[e]stion, I was called, away to visit, Sister  , who was suposed to be dan gerously sick, & myself went and  prayed for and in  the name of Jesus Christ, She ,— returned home
13 December 1835 • Sunday
Sunday morning the 13th at  the us[u]al hour for meeting viz. at 10, oclk  attended meeting, at the , Elder preach’d a  verry feeling discourse indeed, in the after noon Elder , related his exper iance, after which President  related his also, they both spoke of many things  connected with the rise and progress of this  church, which were interesting, and the  Saints, listened, with much attention, after  these serv[ic]es closed, the of the Lords  Supper was administered, under the super intendance of President , who  presided over the meeting during the day.  I then made som remarks respecting [p. 64] prayer meetings, and our meeting was broug ht to a close, by invoking the blessings of heaven,
We then returned home, I ordered my horse  saddled and myself and , rode to Mr. E  Jennings, where I joined and  , in matrimony, according to pre vious arangements, had so far recoverd  from her illness, that she was able to sit in  her easy chair while I pronounced the ma riage ceremony.—
We then rode to ’s a distance  of about 3, miles from Town, where I had been  Solicited, to attend, and solemnize, the matri monial covenant betwe[e]n Mr. & Miss , the parents and many of the conne ctions of both parties were present, with a large  and respectable company of friends, who were  invited as guests; and after making the nec essary arangements the company come to  order, and the & , with the attend ants politely came forward, and took their  seats, and having been requested, to make  some preliminary remarks upon the sub ject of matrimony, touching the design of  the All Mighty in this institution, also  the duties, of husbands & wives towards eac[h] other, and after opening our interview, with singing  and prayer, I delivered a lecture of about 40,  minuits in length, during this time all seem ed to be interested, excepting one or two ind ividuals, who manifested, a spirit of  grovling contempt, which I was constrained  to reprove and rebuke sharply, after I had  been closed my remarks, I the matrim [p. 65]onial ceremony in the name of God, and  pronounced the blessings of heaven. upon  the heads of the young married couple  we then closed by returning thanks.
A sumptuous feast was then spread  and the company were invited to seat them selves, at the table by pairs, male & female  commencing with the oldest, and I can only  say that the interview was conducted with  propriety and decorum, and our hearts were  made to rejoice, while together, and all  cheerfulness prevailed, and after spending  the evening agreeably untill 9, oclock, we  pronouncd a blessing, upon the company  and withdrew, and returned hom[e]
To day the , took fire again
14 December 1835 • Monday
Monday 14th this morning  a number of brethren from,  call[ed] to visit me, and see the Egyptian  records, also returned this  morning, from N[ew] York, Br.  , of the same place called and  paid me a visit, a verry fine man also  Sister called to pay us a visit
After dinner we went to attend the  funeral of s youngest child.  in the evening meet according to notice  previously given to make arangements to  guard against fire, and organized a com pany for this purpose, counciled also on  other affairs of temporal nature
To day came to my  house, much afflicted with a swelling on his  left arm, which was occasioned by a bruise [p. 66] on his elbow, we had been called to pray for  him and him with oil, but his faith was  not sufficient to effect, a cure, and  prepared a poultice of herbs and applyed to it  and he tarryed with me over night
Spent the day at home, reading hebrew, and  visiting friends who called to see me,
To day I received a letter from Elder from his own hand
15 December 1835 • Tuesday
Tuesday 15th spent the day at  home, and as us[u]al was blessed with much  company, some of which called to see the records  , is verry sick in conseq uence of his arm, it being much inflamed
This afternon Elder , handed  me a Letter, the purport of which is that he  is dissatisfyed with the committee, in their  dealings, with him in temporal affairs, that  is that they do not deal as liberally in <with> him  as they do with Elder , also  requested me to reconcile the revelation, given  to the , since their return from the East,
That unless these things and others named  in the letter, could be reconciled to his mind  his honour would not stand united with  them,— this I believe is the amount of the  contents of the letter although much was  written, my feelings on this occasion, were  much laserated, knowing that I had dealt  in righteousness with him in all things  and endeavoured to promote his happin ess and well being, as much as lay in my  power, and I feel that these reflections are [p. 67] ungrateful and founded in jealousy and  that the adversary is striving with all his  subtle devises and influence to destroy him  by causing a division amon[g] the twelve that  God has chosen to open the gospel kingdom  in all nations, but I pray my Heavenly  Father in the name of Jesus of Nazeareth  that he may be delivered from the power  of the destroyer, and that his faith fail not  in this hour of temptation, and prepare  him and all the to receive an , in thy , even according to thy <thine>  own order from time to time as thou seeest  them worthy to be called into thy . [20 lines blank] [p. 68]
16 December 1835 • Wednesday
Wednesday morning the 16th the we ather is extremely cold, this morning I went  to the council room, to lay before the , the letter that I received yesterday from  Elder , but when I arived, I found  that I had lost said letter, but I laid the  substance of it as far as I could recollect  before the council,— but they had not  time to attend to it on the account of  other buisness, accordingly we adjourned  untill Monday Evening the 20th Inst.
Returned home Elder and Elder called and paid  me a visit, with which I was much gra tified, I exibited and to them, and explained  many things to them concerning the  dealings of God with the ancient<s>  and the formation of the planetary  System, they seemed much pleased  with the interview.
This evening according to adjournment  I went to Br. s, to take part in  the debate that was commenced on saturd ay evening last,— after the debate was conc luded, and a desision given in favour of the  affirmative of the question, some altercati on took place, upon the impropiety of  continueing the school fearing that it  would not result in good.
oposed these measures and  insisted on having another question pro posed, and at length become much  enraged particularly at me and used [p. 69] , and also upon  Elder and some others, for which  I am grieved beyond expression, and  can only pray God to forgive him inasmuch  as he repents of his wickedness, and humbles  himself before the Lord.
17 December 1835 • Thursday
Thursday morning 17th at  home,— quite unwell,— This morning Elder   called to see me, and presented  me with a copy of the letter that he hand ed me on Tuesday last, which I had lost
The following is a copy.
Dec 15th 1835
President Smith
Sir you may esteem it a  novel circumstance to receive a written commu nication from me at this time.
My reasons for writing are the following. I  have some things which I wish to communicate  to you, and feeling a greater liberty to do it by  writing alone by myself, I take this method;  and it is generally the case that you are thronged  with buisness and not convenient to spend m uch time in conversing upon subjects of the  following nature. Therefore let these excu ses paliate the novelty of the circumstance  and patiently hear my recital.
After the committee had received their stock  of fall and winter goods, I went to  and told him that I was destitute of a cloak and  wanted him to trust me until Spring for  materials to make one. He told me that [p. 70]
But in a few weeks after I unexpectedly obtained  the money to buy a cloak and applyed imm ediately to for one and told him that  I had the cash to pay for it, but he said that  the materials for cloaks were all sold and  that he could not accommodately me, and  I will here venture a guess that he has not  realized the cash for one cloak pattern.
A few weeks after this I called on again and told him that I wan ted cloth for some shirts to the amount of 4 or  5 Dollars I told him that I would pay him  in the spring and sooner if I could.
He told me let me have it not long after,  my school was established and some of the  hands who laboured on the attended  and wished to pay me at the  for their tuition.— I called at the to see  if any nego[ti]ation could be made and they  take me off where I owed them, but no  such negotiation could be made. These  with some other circumstances of like char acter called forth the following. reflections.
In the first place I gave the committee $275  in cash besides some more and during the  last season have traveled thro the Middle  and Eastern states to suport and uphold  the and in so doing have reduced my self to nothing in a pecuniary point. Under [p. 71]
But after all this, thought I, it may be  right and I will be still— Un[t]il not long since  I asertained that Elder could go  to the and get whatever he pleased,  and no one to say why do ye so, until his  account has amounted to seven Hundred  Dollars or there abouts and that he was a  silent partner in the conce[r]n yet not acknow ledged <as> such fearing that his creditors would  make a hawl upon the .
While we were abroad this last season  we straind every nerve to obtain a little  something for our familys and regularly  divided the monies equally for ought  that I know, not knowing that  had such a fountain at hom[e] from  whence he drew his support. I then  called to mind the revelation in which my self, and were chastened  and also the quotation in that revelation of  the parable of the twelve sons; as if the origi nal meaning referd directly to the of the , I would now ask if each one  of the twelve has not an equal right  to the same accomodations from that   provided they are alike faithful.  If not, with such a combination [p. 72]
If each one has the same right, take the  baskets off from our noses or put one to s nose or if this cannot be done, reconcile  the parable of the twelve sons with the sup erior priveleges that has.
Pardon me if I speak in parables or  parody.
A certain shepherd had twelve sons  and he sent them out one day to go and  gather his flock which were scattered upon  the mountains and in the vallies afar off  they were all obedient to their fathers mand ate, and at Evening they returned with the  flock, and one son received wool enough  to make him warm and comfortable  and also recd of the flesh and milk of the  flock, the other eleven received not so much  as one kid to make merry with their freinds
These facts with some others have dis qualified my mind for studying the Hebr ew Language at present, and believing, as I  do, that I must sink or swim, or in other wor ds take care of myself, I have thought that  I should take the most efficient means in  my power to get out of debt, and to this end  I proposed taking the school, but if I am  not thought competent to take the charge  of the it, or worthy to be placed in that station,  I must devise some other means to help  myself; altho having been to  that office under your own hand with  a promise that it should not be taken  from me.— [p. 73]
Conclusion of the whole matter is sutch  I am willing to continue and do all I can  provided we can share equal benefits  one with the other, and upon no other pr inciple whatever. If one has his suport  from the “publick crib” let them all have  it. But if one is pinched I am willing  to be, provided we are all alike.
If the principle of impartiality and  equality can be observed by all I think  that I will not peep again—
If I am damned it will be for doing what I think is  right.— There have been two applications  made to me to go into business since  I talked of taking the school, but it is  in the world and I had rather remain  in if I can consistently
All I ask is Right
I Am Sir with
Respect Your obt. servt.
To President J. Smith jn
Geauga Co.
Ohio [p. 74]
Elder called and read the foregoing  letter himself and, I explained upon the objec tions, he had set forth in it, and satisfyed his  mind upon every point, perfectly and he  observed after I had got through, that he  was more than satisfyed, and would attend  the , and took the parting hand  with me with every expression of friendship  that a gentleman, and a Christian could ma nifest, which I felt to reciprocate, with the  cheerfulness and entertain, the best of feeling  for him, and most cheerfully forgive him  the ingratitude which was manifisted in his  letter, knowing that it was for want of corect  information, that his mind was disturbed  as far as his reflections related to me.
But on the part of the committe, he was  not treated, right in all thing, however  all things, are settled amicably, and no hard ness exists between. us or them
My & called this evening to see  me upon the , that transp ired at their house on wednesdy evening between  me and my , they were sorely  afflicted in mind on the account of that  occurrence, I conversed with them, and showed  convinced them that I was not to blame  in taking the course I did, but had acted  in righteousness, in all thing on that occasion  I
, they concented to do so as soon as it  <is> practicable [p. 75]
18 December 1835 • Friday
Friday morning 17th <18th> Inst. at home  Br. , called to see me  and read a letter to me that he received  from , in which he asked, <his> for  <for>givness for the abuse he offered to him, at  the debate, he tarried, most of the fore  noon, and conversed freely with me, upon  the subject, of the , he said that  he was, perfectly satisfied, with the course I  had taken, with him, in rebuking, him in  his wickedness,— but he is wounded to the verry  soul, with the conduct of , and although  he feels the tender feelings of a brother, toward  him yet he can but look upon his conduct  as an abomination in the sight of God
And I could pray in my heart that  all my brethren were like unto my beloved  brother , who posseses the mildness  of a lamb and the integrity of a Job,  and in short the meekness and humility  of Christ, and I love him with that love  that is stronger than death; for I never  had occasion to rebuke him, and nor  he me which he declared when he  left me to day [7 lines blank] [p. 76]
18th Inst.
Copy of a letter from Br.
Br. Joseph— Though I do not know but  I have forfeited all right and title to the  word brother, in concequence of what I have  done, for I concider myself; that I am unw orthy to be called one, after coming to myself  and concidering upon what I have done  I feel as though it was a duty, to make  a to you for what I  have done or what took place the other  evening,— but leave this part of the sub ject at present,— I was called to an acco unt by the , yesterday for my conduct; or  they desired to know my mind or det ermination and what I was going to do  I told them that on reflection upon the  many difficulties that I had had  with the church and the much  disgrace I had brought upon my self in concequence of these things  and also that my health would  not permit me to go to to  <make> any preperations for the  and that my health was such that  I was not able to travel, I told them  that it would be better for them to  appoint one in the office that would  be better able to fill it, and by doing  this they would throw me into the  hands of the church, and leave me  where I was before I was chosen—
Then I would not be in a situation [p. 77]
I feel a fraid if I do’nt do this it  will be worse for me, some other day
And again my health is poor and  I am not able to travel and it is ne cessary that the office, should not be  idle— And again I say you know  my passions and I am a fraid it  will be worse for me, by and by
do so if the Lord will have mercy  on me and let me remain as a  member in the church, and then  I can travel and preach, when I am  able— do not think that I am your  enemy for what I have done, perhaps  you may say or ask why I have not  remembered the good that you have  done to me— When I reflect upon the  ingury I have done you I must con fess that I do not know what I have  been doing about— I feel sorry for  what I have done and humbly ask  your forgiveness— I have not confid ence as yet to come and see you  for I feel ashamed of what I have  done, and as I feel now I feel as thou [p. 78]
yours with respect
do not cast me off for what I have done  but strive to save me in the church as a  member I do repeat repent of what I have done  to you and ask your forgiveness— I concider  the transgression the other evening of no  small magnitude,— but it is done and  I cannot help it now— I know brother  Joseph you are always willing to forgive.
But I sometimes think when I ref lect upon the many inguries I have  done you I feel as though a confession  was not hardly sufficient— but have  mercy on me this once and I will  try to do so no more—
The , called a council yesterday and  sent over after me and I went over
This council rem[em]ber was called together  by themselves and not by me
[p. 79]
Letter to William Smith • 18 or 19 December 1835
Friday Dec 17th <18th> 1835
Answer to the foregoing Letter from Br.   a Copy
having received your letter I  now procede to answer it, and shall first  procede, to give a brief naration of my feel ings and motives, since the night I first  came to the knowledge, of your having a  debating school, which was at the time I  happened, in with, his Father  and Mother &c— which was the first that I  knew any thing about it, and from that  time I took an interest in them, and was  delighted with it, and formed a determination,  to attend the school for the purpose of obtain ing information, and with the idea of imp arting the same, through the assistance of  the spirit of the Lord, if by any means I should  have faith to do so; and with this intent, I went  to the school on <last> Wedensday night, not with the  idea of braking up the school, neither did it  enter into my heart, that there was any wra ngling or jealousy’s in your heart, against me;
Notwithstanding previous to my leaving home  there were feelings of solemnity, rolling across  my breast, which were unaccountable to me,  and also these feelings continued by spells to  depress my feelings <spirit> and seemed to manifest  that all was not right, even after the debate  school commenced, and during the debate,  yet I strove to believe that all would work together  for good; I was pleased with the power of the  arguments, that were aduced, and did [p. 80] not feel to cast any reflections, upon any  one that had spoken; but I felt that it  was my <the> duty of old men that set as presi dents to be as grave, at least as young men,  and that it was our duty to smile at solid  arguments, and sound reasoning, and be im preesed, with solemnity, which should be man ifest in our countanance, when folly and that  which militates against truth and righteousn ess, rears its head
Therefore in the spirit of my calling and  in view of the authority of the that  has been confered upon me, it would be my du ty to reprove whatever I esteemed to be wrong fon dly hoping in my heart that all parties, would  concider it right, and therefore humble themsel ves, that satan might not take the advantage  of us, and hinder the progress of our .
Now I want you should bear  with me, notwithstanding my plainness—
I would say to you that my feelings, were  grieved at the interuption you made upon  , I thought, you should have  concidered your relation, with him, in your  , and not manifest any division  of sentiment, between you, and him, for a  surrounding multitude to take the advan tage of you:— Therefore by way of entreaty, on  the account of the anxiety I had for your inf luence and wellfare, I said, unto you, do  not have any feelings, or something to that  amount, why I am thus particular, is that  if You, have misconstrued, my feelings,  toward you, you may be corrected.— [p. 81]
But to procede— after the school was closed  , requested, the privilege, of speaking,  you objected, however you said if he would  not abuse the school, he might speak, and  that you would not allow any man to  abuse the school in your house,—
Now you had no reason to suspect that  , would abuse the school, therefore  my feelings were mortifyed, at those unnecessa[r]y  observations, I undertook to reason, with you  but you manifisted, an inconciderate and  stubourn spirit, I then dispared, of benefiting  you, on the account of the spirit you manif ested, which drew from, me the expression  that you was as ugly as the Devil.
then commanded silence and I formed  a determination, to obey his mandate, and  was about to leave the house, with the impr ession, that You was under the influence of  a wicked spirit, you replyed that you, would  say what you pleased in your own house,  replyed, say what you please, but let the  rest hold their, toungs, then a reflection, rushed  through my mind, of the, anxiety, and care  I had <hav> had for you and your family, in doing  what I did, in finishing your house and  providin flour for your family &c and also   had possession in the house, as well,  as your self; and when at any time have  I transgressed, the commandments of ? or sold my birthright, that I  should not have the privilege of spea king in s house, or in other words  in s family, or in your house, [p. 82] (for so we will call it, and so it shall be,) that  I should not have the privilege, of reproving a  younger brother, therefore I said I will speak,  for I built the house, and it is as much mine  as yours, or something, to that effect, (I should  have said that. I helped finish the house,) I  said it merely to show that it could not be,  the right spirit, that would rise up for trifli ng matters, and undertake to put me to sil ence, I saw that your indignation was kin dled against me, and you made towards  me, I was not then to be moved, and I  thought, to pull off my loose coat, least  it should tangle me, and you be left to  hurt me, but not with the intention, of hurt ing You, but you was to[o] soon for me, and  having once fallen into the hands of a mob,  and now been wounded in my side, and  now into the hands of a brother, , and after having been rescued,  from your grasp, I left your house, with, feel ings that were indiscribale, the scenery had  changed, and all those expectations, that I  had cherished, when going to your house, of  brotherly kindness, charity forbearance and  natural, affection, that in duty binds us not  to make eachothers offenders for a word. but
But alass! abuse, anger, malice, hatred,  and rage <with a lame side> with marks, of violence <heaped> upon  my body me by a brother, were the reflec tions of my disapointment, and with these  I returned home, not able to sit down, or  rise up, without help, but through the  blessings of God I am now better.— [p. 83]
I have received your letter and purused it  with care, I have not entertained a feeling of  malice, against you, I am, older than your and  have endured, more suffering, have been  mar[r]ed by mobs, the labours of my calling, a  series of persecution, and inguries, continually  heaped upon me, all serve to debilitate, my  body, and it may <be> that I cannot boast  of being stronger, than you, if I could, or  could not, would this be an honor, or dishonor  to me,— if I could boast like David of slaying  a Goliath, who defied the armies of the living  God, or like Paul, of contending with Peter  face to face, with sound arguments, it might  be an honor, But to mangle the flesh or  seek revenge upon one who never done you  any wrong, can not be a source of sweet  reflection, to you, nor to me, neither to an hon orable father & mother, brothers, and sisters,  and when we reflect, with what care our  parents and with what unremiting diligence  our parents, have strove to watch over us,  and how many hours, of sorrow, and anx iety, they have spent over our cradles and  bedsides, in times of sickness, how careful  we ought to be of their feelings in their old  age, it cannot be a source of sweet reflection  to us to say or do any thing that will bring  their grey hairs down with sorrow to the grave,
In your letter you asked my forgivness,  which I readily grant, but it seems to me, that  you still retain an idea, that I have given  you reasons to be angry or disaffected with me,
Grant me the privelege of saying then, [p. 84] that however hasty, or harsh, I may have  spoken, at any time to you, it has been done  for the express purpose of endeavouring, to  warn exhort, admonish, and rescue you, from  falling into difficulties, and sorrows which I  foresaw you plunging into, by giving way  to that wicked spirit, which you call your  passions, which you should curbe and break  down, and put under your feet, which if  you do not you, never can be saved, in  my view, in the kingdom of God.
God requires the will of his creatures,  to be swallowed up in his will.
You desire to remain in the church, but  forsake your , this is a stratigem  of the evil one, when he has gained one  advantage, your he lays a plan for anoth er, by <but> by maintaining your apostleship  in rising up, and making one tremendeous  effort, you may overcome your passions,  and please God and by forsaking your  apostleship, is not to be willing, to make that  sacrafice that God requires at your hands  and is to incur his displeasure, and without  pleasing God do not think, that it will be  any better for you, when a man falls one  step he must regain that step again, or  fall another, he has still more to gain, or  eventually all is lost.
I desire that you  will humble yourself, I freely forgive  you and you know, my unshaken  and unshaken unchangable disposition  I think know in whom I trust, I stand upon [p. 85] the rock, the floods cannot, no they shall  not overthrow me, you know the doctrine  I teach is true, and you know that God  has blessed me, I brought salvation to s house, as an instrument in the  hand of God, when they were in a m iserable situation, You know that it is my  duty to admonish you when you do wrong  this liberty I shall always take, and you  shall have the same privelege, I take the  privelege, to admonish you because of my  birthright, and I grant you the privilege  because it is my duty, to be humble and  to receive rebuke, and instruction, from a brother  or a friend.
As it regards, what course you shall  persue hereafter, I do not pretend to say,  I leave you in the hands of God and his  church. Make your own desision, I will  do you good altho you mar me, or slay  me, by so doing my garments, shall be  clear of your sins, and if at any time you  should concider me to be an imposter, for  heavens sake leave me in the hands of God,  and not think to take vengance on me  your self.
Tyrany ursurpation, and to take mens  rights ever has and ever shall be banished  from my heart.
David sought not to kill Saul, although  he was guilty of crimes that never entered  my heart.
And now may God have mercy  upon s house, may God take [p. 86] away enmity, from betwe[e]n me and thee,  and may all blessings be restored, and the  past be forgotten forever, may humble  repentance bring us both to thee <O God> and to  thy power and protection, and a crown, to  enjoy the society of   the Saints and all the sanctif[ie]d  in peace forever<, is the prayer of>
This from Your brother
Joseph Smith Jun