History, 1834–1836

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as though a confession was not sufficient; but have mercy on me this once, and I will try to do so no more.
The quorum of the 12, called a council yesterday and sent for me, and I went over. This council was called together without my knowledge, or concent.— Yours
Letter to William Smith • 18 or 19 December 1835
Friday December 18th. 1836 [1835]
Answer to the foregoing letter. A Copy
Having received your letter I now procede to answer it. I shall first proceed to give a brief narration of my feelings and emotions, since the night I first came to the knowledge of your having a debating-School at your house; which was at the time I called with & family— This was the first that I knew any thing about it, and from that time I took an interest in them; and was delighted with it, and formed a determination to attend the school for the purpose of obtaining [information], and with the idea of imparting the same, through the assistance of the spirit of the Lord; if by any means I should have faith to do so, and with this intent I went to the School on Wednesday night. Not with the idea of breaking up the school; neither did it enter into my heart, that there was any wrangling or jealousy’s in your heart, against me.
However previous to my leaving home there were feelings of solemnity rolling across my heart, which were unaccountable to me. These feelings continued by times to depress my spirits, and seemed to manifest that all was not right, even after the school commenced, and during the debate. Yet I strove to believe that all would work together for good. I was pleased with the arguments, & ingenuity manifested and did not feel to cast any reflections, upon any one that had spoken. But I felt that it was the duty of old men that set as presidents, to be as grave at least as young men. And that it was our duty to smile at solid arguments, and sound reasoning; and be impressed with solemnity, which should be expressed in our countinance [p. 157]
as though a confession was not sufficient; but have mercy on me this once, and I will try to do so no more.
The quorum of the 12, called a council yesterday and sent for me, and I went over. This council was called together without my knowledge, or concent.— Yours
Letter to William Smith • 18 or 19 December 1835
Friday December 18th. 1836 [1835]
Answer to the foregoing letter. A Copy
Having received your letter I now procede to answer it. I shall first proceed to give a brief narration of my feelings and emotions, since the night I first came to the knowledge of your having a debating-School at your house; which was at the time I called with & family— This was the first that I knew any thing about it, and from that time I took an interest in them; and was delighted with it, and formed a determination to attend the school for the purpose of obtaining information, and with the idea of imparting the same, through the assistance of the spirit of the Lord; if by any means I should have faith to do so, and with this intent I went to the School on Wednesday night. Not with the idea of breaking up the school; neither did it enter into my heart, that there was any wrangling or jealousy’s in your heart, against me.
However previous to my leaving home there were feelings of solemnity rolling across my heart, which were unaccountable to me. These feelings continued by times to depress my spirits, and seemed to manifest that all was not right, even after the school commenced, and during the debate. Yet I strove to believe that all would work together for good. I was pleased with the arguments, & ingenuity manifested and did not feel to cast any reflections, upon any one that had spoken. But I felt that it was the duty of old men that set as presidents, to be as grave at least as young men. And that it was our duty to smile at solid arguments, and sound reasoning; and be impressed with solemnity, which should be expressed in our countinance [p. 157]
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