History, 1834–1836

  • Source Note
  • Historical Introduction
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you replyed that you, would say what you pleased, in your own house. replyed say what you please; but let the rest hold their toungs. Then a reflection rushed through my mind of the anxiety and care I had for you, and your family, in doing what I did in finishing your house and providing flower [flour] for your family &c. And also had possession in the house as well as yourself. And when at any time have I transgressed the commandments of my or sold my birthright? that I should not have <​the​> privilege of speaking in my ’s house, or in other words in my fathers family, or in your house, (for so we will call it; and so it shall be,) that I should not have the privilege of reproving a younger ?
Therefore I said I will speak for I built the house, and it is as much mine as yours, or something to that effect, (I should have said that I helped to finish the house.) I said it merely to show that it was not the right spirit, that would rise up for trifling matters, and undertake to put me to silence.
I saw that your indignation was kindled against me, and you made towards me; I was not then to be moved, and I thought to pull off my loose coat, least it should tangle me, and you be left to hurt me. But not with the intention of hurting you. But you was to[o] soon for me; and having once fallen into the hands of a mob and wounded in my side, and now into the hands of a , my side gave way: and after having been rescued from your grasp, I left your house, with feelings that were indiscribable. The scenery had now changed and all those fond expectations, that I had cherished (when going to your house,) of brotherly kindness, charity forbearance, and natural affection, that binds us in duty, not to make eachother an offender for a word.
But alas! abuse, anger, malice, hatred, and rage, are heaped upon me, by a ; and with marks of violence upon my body, with a lame side, I left your habitation bruised and wounded; and not only oppressed with these, but more severely so in mind being born down under the reflection of my disappointment. I returned home, not able to sit down or rise up without help. But through the blessing of God I am [p. 159]
you replyed that you, would say what you pleased, in your own house. replyed say what you please; but let the rest hold their toungs. Then a reflection rushed through my mind of the anxiety and care I had for you, and your family, in doing what I did in finishing your house and providing flower [flour] for your family &c. And also had possession in the house as well as yourself. And when at any time have I transgressed the commandments of my or sold my birthright? that I should not have the privilege of speaking in my ’s house, or in other words in my fathers family, or in your house, (for so we will call it; and so it shall be,) that I should not have the privilege of reproving a younger ?
Therefore I said I will speak for I built the house, and it is as much mine as yours, or something to that effect, (I should have said that I helped to finish the house.) I said it merely to show that it was not the right spirit, that would rise up for trifling matters, and undertake to put me to silence.
I saw that your indignation was kindled against me, and you made towards me; I was not then to be moved, and I thought to pull off my loose coat, least it should tangle me, and you be left to hurt me. But not with the intention of hurting you. But you was too soon for me; and having once fallen into the hands of a mob and wounded in my side, and now into the hands of a , my side gave way: and after having been rescued from your grasp, I left your house, with feelings that were indiscribable. The scenery had now changed and all those fond expectations, that I had cherished (when going to your house,) of brotherly kindness, charity forbearance, and natural affection, that binds us in duty, not to make eachother an offender for a word.
But alas! abuse, anger, malice, hatred, and rage, are heaped upon me, by a ; and with marks of violence upon my body, with a lame side, I left your habitation bruised and wounded; and not only oppressed with these, but more severely so in mind being born down under the reflection of my disappointment. I returned home, not able to sit down or rise up without help. But through the blessing of God I am [p. 159]
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