History, 1834–1836

  • Source Note
  • Historical Introduction
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now better.— I have received your letter and perused it with care; I have not entertained a feeling of malice against you; I am older than yourself, and have endured more suffering, having been marred by mobs, with the labour’s of my calling, with a series of persecution and injuries, continually heaped upon me, all serve to debiletate my system. And it may be that I cannot boast of being stronger than you: If I could, or could not, would this be an honour, or dishonour to me? If I like David could boast of slaying a Goliath, who defied the armies of the living God; or like Paul, of contending with a Peter face to face, with sound and iresistable arguments, it might be an honour. But to mangle the flesh or seek revenge upon one who never done you any wrong, cannot be a source of sweet reflection to you, nor me, neither to our honerable & , brothers & sisters. And when we reflect upon the care and unremitting diligence our parents have wached over us by night, & by day, and how many hours of sorrow, and painful anxiety they have spent over our cradles and by our bedsides, in sickness and in health. How careful ought we to be of their feelings in their old age? It surely cannot be a source of sweet reflection to us, to say or do any thing that would bring down their grey hairs with sorrow to the grave. In your letter you asked my forgiveness, which I readily grant; but it seems to me that you still retain an idea that I have done given you reason to be angry, or dissatisfied with me.
Grant me the privilege then of saying, that however hasty, or harsh, I might have spoken at any time to you, it has been for the express purpose of endeavouring to warn exhort, admonish & rescue you from falling into difficulties & sorrows which I foresaw that you were plunging yourself, by giving way to that wicked spirit, which you call your passion<​’s​>, which you should curb and break down, and put under your feet, which if you do not, you never can be saved, (in my view) in the kingdom of God.
The Lord requires the will of his creatures to be swallowed up in his will. [p. 160]
now better.— I have received your letter and perused it with care; I have not entertained a feeling of malice against you; I am older than yourself, and have endured more suffering, having been marred by mobs, with the labour’s of my calling, with a series of persecution and injuries, continually heaped upon me, all serve to debiletate my system. And it may be that I cannot boast of being stronger than you: If I could, or could not, would this be an honour, or dishonour to me? If I like David could boast of slaying a Goliath, who defied the armies of the living God; or like Paul, of contending with a Peter face to face, with sound and iresistable arguments, it might be an honour. But to mangle the flesh or seek revenge upon one who never done you any wrong, cannot be a source of sweet reflection to you, nor me, neither to our honerable & , brothers & sisters. And when we reflect upon the care and unremitting diligence our parents have wached over us by night, & by day, and how many hours of sorrow, and painful anxiety they have spent over our cradles and by our bedsides, in sickness and in health. How careful ought we to be of their feelings in their old age? It surely cannot be a source of sweet reflection to us, to say or do any thing that would bring down their grey hairs with sorrow to the grave. In your letter you asked my forgiveness, which I readily grant; but it seems to me that you still retain an idea that I have given you reason to be angry, or dissatisfied with me.
Grant me the privilege then of saying, that however hasty, or harsh, I might have spoken at any time to you, it has been for the express purpose of endeavouring to warn exhort, admonish & rescue you from falling into difficulties & sorrows which I foresaw that you were plunging yourself, by giving way to that wicked spirit, which you call your passion’s, which you should curb and break down, and put under your feet, which if you do not, you never can be saved, (in my view) in the kingdom of God.
The Lord requires the will of his creatures to be swallowed up in his will. [p. 160]
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