History, 1838–1856, volume B-1 [1 September 1834–2 November 1838]

  • Source Note
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<​November 16 ’s Letter Continued.​> have I persecuted the saints. But my hands are swift to do iniquity, and my feet are fast running in the paths of vice and folly; and my heart quick to devise wicked imaginations: Nevertheless I am im[HC 2:313]pressed with the sure thought that I am fast hastening into a world of disembodied spirits beings, without God, and with but one hope in the world; which is to know, that to err, is human, but to forgive, is divene. Much I might say in relation to myself, and the original difficulties with the church which I will forbear, and inasmuch as I have been charged with things that I was not guilty of, I am now more than doubly guilty, and am now willing to forgive and forget, only let me know that I am within the reach of mercy: If I am not I have no reflections to cast, but say that I have sealed my own doom, and pronounced my own sentence. If the day has is passed by with me, may I here beg leave to intreat of those who are still toiling up the rugged ascent, to make their way to the realms of endless felicity and delight, to stop not for anchors here below. Follow not my example, but steer your course onward in spite of all the combined powers of earth and hell, for know that one mis-step here is only retrievable by a thousand groans and tears before God. Dear Brother Joseph, let me entreat you on the reception of this letter, as you regard the Salvation of my soul to enquire at the hand of the Lord, in my behalf; for I this day in the presence of God, do covenant to abide the word that may be given, for I am willing to recieve any chastisement that the Lord sees I deserve. Now hear my prayer and suffer me to break forth in the agony of my soul. O! ye angels! that surround the throne of God; Princes of heaven that excel in strength, ye who are clothed with transcendant brightness, plead, O plead for one of the most wretched of the sons of men. O ye Heavens! whose azure arches rise immensely high, and stretch immeasureably wide, grand amphitheatre of nature, throne of the Eternal God bow to hear the prayer of a poor, wretched, bewildered, way-wanderer to Eternity. O, thou great Omnipotent and omnipresent Jehovah, Thou who sitteth upon the thrones before whom all things are present, thou maker, moulder, and fashioner of all things visible and invisible, Breathe, O breathe! into the ears of thy servant the prophet, words suitably adopted to my case and situation. Speak once more, make known thy will concerning me, which favors I ask in the name of the son of God. Amen.
N.B. I hope you will not let any business prevent you from answering this letter in haste. Yours Respectfully, ,” To Joseph Smith”
Which I answered as follows
. Nov 16th. 1835.
<​Joseph’s Letter to .​> Brother ,
I have received your Letter of the 28th. [HC 2:314] September 1835, and I have read it twice, and it gave me sensations that are better imagined [p. 652]
November 16 ’s Letter Continued. have I persecuted the saints. But my hands are swift to do iniquity, and my feet are fast running in the paths of vice and folly; and my heart quick to devise wicked imaginations: Nevertheless I am im[HC 2:313]pressed with the sure thought that I am fast hastening into a world of disembodied beings, without God, and with but one hope in the world; which is to know, that to err, is human, but to forgive, is divene. Much I might say in relation to myself, and the original difficulties with the church which I will forbear, and inasmuch as I have been charged with things that I was not guilty of, I am now more than doubly guilty, and am now willing to forgive and forget, only let me know that I am within the reach of mercy: If I am not I have no reflections to cast, but say that I have sealed my own doom, and pronounced my own sentence. If the day is passed by with me, may I here beg leave to intreat of those who are still toiling up the rugged ascent, to make their way to the realms of endless felicity and delight, to stop not for anchors here below. Follow not my example, but steer your course onward in spite of all the combined powers of earth and hell, for know that one mis-step here is only retrievable by a thousand groans and tears before God. Dear Brother Joseph, let me entreat you on the reception of this letter, as you regard the Salvation of my soul to enquire at the hand of the Lord, in my behalf; for I this day in the presence of God, do covenant to abide the word that may be given, for I am willing to recieve any chastisement that the Lord sees I deserve. Now hear my prayer and suffer me to break forth in the agony of my soul. O! ye angels! that surround the throne of God; Princes of heaven that excel in strength, ye who are clothed with transcendant brightness, plead, O plead for one of the most wretched of the sons of men. O ye Heavens! whose azure arches rise immensely high, and stretch immeasureably wide, grand amphitheatre of nature, throne of the Eternal God bow to hear the prayer of a poor, wretched, bewildered, way-wanderer to Eternity. O, thou great Omnipotent and omnipresent Jehovah, Thou who sitteth upon the thrones before whom all things are present, thou maker, moulder, and fashioner of all things visible and invisible, Breathe, O breathe! into the ears of thy servant the prophet, words suitably adopted to my case and situation. Speak once more, make known thy will concerning me, which favors I ask in the name of the son of God. Amen.
N.B. I hope you will not let any business prevent you from answering this letter in haste. Yours Respectfully, ,” To Joseph Smith”
Which I answered as follows
. Nov 16th. 1835.
Joseph’s Letter to . Brother ,
I have received your Letter of the 28th. [HC 2:314] September 1835, and I have read it twice, and it gave me sensations that are better imagined [p. 652]
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